He's Gone

Helment's Gone

Who knew one person could change your life in just one year. Saying goodbye to my best friend was one of the hardest things I ever had to do.

Now everyday I had to face the fact that I wasn't ever gonna see him again.
Have you ever had to say goodbye to someone who meant so much to you? For an example your best friend? I have and it hurts a lot more than it should've. I ended up not sleeping the night I found out.

He meant so much to me. He wasn't a total ass like the rest of the guys I met. He was different from anyone.

I couldn't sleep for days. I started getting bags under my eyes. My parents became worried about me. My grades were going downhill. You expect me to try my hardest at school right now? Do they not understand how broken I feel. My mind goes crazy half the time. I just want to run away.

When I first met Clay I didn't know what to expect. I always saw him as a quiet guy who always wore that sweater of his. When I saw him smile I knew he was going to be okay.

The last time I saw him I should've hugged him longer. To me, I felt like I could've been a better friend for him.
It was the last time I heard his voice.
It was last time I saw his smile. It was the last time I saw my best friend.

"I can't believe he's actually gone," I said to myself in bed. I was quite a wreck that night of his death. I was panicking and crying. After he left, I knew I was gonna be all by myself since then. I had no one else with me.