Shadowhunter Imagines

Broken Promises (Raphael X Reader)

Raphael X Reader
A/N- I almost cried writing this so beware of FEELS.

Word Count 1002

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Raphael's POV

"Raphael, do you love me?" I looked up at her. Her hair was up in a messy bun but I only found it adorable. My head sat in her lap as her slender fingers moved trough my dark hair. I smiled up at her, my arm reaching up to cup her face. "With all my heart." She smiled down at me and I watched as it dropped a bit, seriousness filling her eyes and face. "Can I ask you a favor?"

I was concerned with her sudden change in attitude but thought against it. "Of course, darling. Anything."

"Change me." I was taken aback and sat up staring at her blankly. I had never thought that she would ask for such a thing. Yes she knew the truth about me but I was a monster and for her to want to be a monster like me broke my heart. I would never want this life for her. The memory of the sun slowly fading from her mind as she stayed in the shadows longer and longer as the world went by but she stood, frozen in time as she watched her family and friends move in with life while she remained.

"Darling no... I- I could never do that to you." I watched as anger flared in her eyes as she stood up from the couch. "Why not?! Do you not care enough about me that you would just leave me like this?" I looked at her utterly shocked by her sudden outburst. "What do you mean? Like what?"

"Mortal, Raphael. Mortal. Eventually, after years, I'll age and you won't and you'll lose interest in me and move on while I could never." Her eyes shown with tears as frustration took its toll on her. "Y/N, where is this coming from? You know I love you and I would never leave you."

She scoffed and turned away. "Right. You'll just stay with me until I'm old and wrinkly and you'll still be in love with me? I don't think so." I watched as tears slid down her cheeks. I understood why she thought this way but honestly, I had never felt this way about any mortal and it scared me. But no matter how heartbroken she became, I just couldn't stand the thought of changing her into the monster I've become. She had so much opportunity in life but becoming a vampire limited those things that I so very much wanted her to experience.

"I promise, Y/N. I will stay with you because I love you like no other being in this entire world. Never in a hundred years have I felt like this towards another being. Please, understand that I love you and that changing you would tear my heart. Please." She turned back towards me and after a split second of locked eye contact, she launched herself into my arms. I held her close, my hands tangling into her H/C locks.

A tear slid down my cheek as my mind went through the memory. I was kneeling down next to a slab of marble, a single rose in my hand as I squeezed the thorns into my hand. I watched as the scarlet drops fell onto the soil. My eyes scanned the engravings into the slab over and over, still not able to believe that so much time as past already.

Y/N L/N

A loving daughter and a wonderful woman filled so much kindness and love for others.

Tears fell down my face harder as her last days played through my mind.

Her wrinkled hand was held into mine. Her once sparkling E/C eyes had dulled over the years, her hair turning grey and wispy but no matter what, I still found it beautiful. Everyday I woke up beside her, it felt like the first time falling in love. This was the opposite. This felt like when I was dying before becoming a fledgling.

It pained me so much to watched as her hand became weaker and weaker in mine the longer I led it. "Raphael, I'm gonna miss you." I smiled weakly.
"Not as much I will miss you, Darling." She chuckled softly which ended up turning into a fit of coughing. I squeezed her hand tighter, my heart skipping a beat. But her coughing subsided and she looked back at me with sorrowful eyes. "Promise me something, Raphael." I nodded," Anything."

"Promise you will find another who brings you so much love and compassion. Promise me you will be happy once again after this. That you will not become cold and lonely the rest of your life." Her eyes shone with light and I felt my heart swell because I knew no soul would ever bring me as much love and happiness as she has. But I had to give her hope, for I knew this was her last day, that she would not see the sun of tomorrow.

"Of course, Darling." I single tear fell from her cheek as she stared up at the ceiling, a smile upon her face. "I love you, Raphael," she barley whispered. "I love you too, Y/N."

I watched silently as she stared up at the ceiling, the light slowly fading from her eyes and a stillness so disturbing settled over her body. When her hand went limp against mine, I felt the sobs shake through my body and I couldn't keep them in any longer.

I set the rose down against the marble, my hand slowly healing from the thorn punctures. A silent tear fell down my cheek, landing quietly onto the marble. "I love you, Y/N," I whispered.

Standing, I turned and walked out of the cemetery and into the night knowing that my life would never be the same. That no matter what I promised, no being could ever make me feel what I had felt with the love of my life. And now she was gone. And so was I.