Reality

Chapter 1: How it Started

June 30th 2017

Hi my name is crystal and i dont know what you expect me to write i guess that im writing out of boredom and i dont really want to but you know how life gets have to do something to stay sane.

Maybe you dont maybe you do i  dont know really i guess you want me to say what im thinking and feeling how my days been. Well im thinking about how ive spent the last month in my room because ive been scared to go to school scared to go the shops scared to do anything really im feeling horrible because my life sucks and my day hasnt been good at all.

Ive sat in my room binge watching orange is the new black on netflix but then i finished that and now im watching the vampire diaries 17 episodes in the last day. What a life ay.

The bullying is just part of it all see my entire life started to be horrible when i was 7. i had a perfect life before got what i wanted went to my dads every weekend had loads of friends that came to my birthday party.

Then out of the blue, i had been so excited about going to stay at my dads that day it was a friday see i had told daniella about how excited i was i also told lara and melissa. I was so happy until i got home. I cant remember exactly what happened all i know is i couldnt go to my dads he had been arrested and i was never seeing him again.

After that everything went wrong. My boyfriend got tooken into care my best friends stopped talking to me and i was moving away again.

The moving wasnt so bad i moved back to where i had been before everything went wrong i had also got my best friends back but we all just fell out. I met this boy then chris he was cool we hung out alot i thought he cheated though so i broke up with him. Then i moved again and this time was worse lara had grew a hate for me i couldnt understand so when i saw her i tried to make a truce i guess it worked we were thick as thieves after that but me and daniella werent so close anymore and nobody talked to me when i tried to commit cuz of everything but thats a whold different story.

By this point we had moved exactly 9 times and i was only 11. I thought this move would be different but it wasnt the bullying was even worse not going into detail i almost committed twice that year it was p7 so i was glad when i had to move out the city for 1st year new school new me. No one  knew me no one could judge me. I made great friends and i didnt get bullied. For the first time.

I then moved back and bam it was like that year of wonderful school and really nice people hadnt even happened i ended up at a school where someone hated me based on stories of p6. nicola. It spiralled quickly from there she made my life a living hell but i put up with her pulling my hair and picking arguments.

S2 wasnt much better she still picked arguments only i shouted back alot got in trouble twice for it so i moved school and it wasnt what id hoped.

I got into ny first physical fight i ended up loosing all of my friend except one and i spent most of my time at that school eating lunch with my sister blair and her friends. But my mum couldnt cope she home schooled me for the last part of second year. I spent all summer trying to get my friends back i got most of them except for 3 molly iona and jade.

3rd year was good i became friends with molly again and me her becca kacie and katherine did everything together. But that didnt stay that way kacie ruined it all started picking arguments joing sides with nicola. Then nicki got involved and tried to pick a fight in pe but it didnt work.

Something good happened on december i found my first true love so to speak his name was tyler i loved him and i think he loved me but i was scared of commitment scared of something good in my life so i broke up with him. Truth be told i havent stopped thinking about him to this day i love him but i know he isnt interested. I should have spent the last 7 months trying to get over him since i dumped him but i couldnt i still cant. I also got diagnosed with eds type 3 and extreme hypermobility.

Anyway as s4 started it was good spent the first week doing good, in all day every day on time, didnt start anything. Week two and i had starting getting bullied by jewels she poured juice on me, orange i think, for no reason at all. I went in for the last two periods on the thursday. And i skived on the friday.

I went out in white jeans a white top and had just done my tan. Jewels was at the park and poured irn bru over my head and in my bag. When i was trying to get the juice of my face she came up behind me grabbed hair and started hitting my head this other girl alia kicked me twice and then i left. They are why i havent been out to the shops or anything.

I skived on the monday after because nicola was trying  to fight me. I went in on the tuesday and she was talking about how she was gonna fight me at lunch so i left at break she however was outside waiting i couldnt be bothered with her or kacie or nicki so i just walked away and went up town with mo but i havent been back to school since.

That brings me to present day where i have 1 day of being off school left until summer i dont quite know whats going to happen over summer nicola still wants a fight and i have 0 friends left.

Omg im rambelling im going to stop now.

Bye for now diary thing whatever speak soon.

Crystal xo