Crash and Burn (Eminem Love Story)

Chapter 10

Marshall awoke on the floor and looked over at Lolita. Her lip was poked out and she was frowned up like she was having a bad dream. He rubbed his hands up and down her back and her face relaxed a little more. He felt his phone buzzing in his pocket and he shifted to get it out.
"Hello?" He groaned and heard Lo start to awaken. She looked at him and sighed before stretching and walking over to him. She sat down and wrapped her arms around him and then closed her eyes.
"Marshall, are you busy." Paul, his manager asked and Marshall sighed.
"What could be that important that you can't wait until the sunrises?"
"I just got a call from someone that works at the studio, they said that you were shooting behind the lot... that's a violation of your probation Mars-"
"Paul, goodnight." Marshall said and hung up.
"Lolita..." he said softly and she didn't respond.  He looked over and saw Jenny and Kalia sleeping on the couch and he immediately thought of Hailie. He came straight here because of Lolita ignoring his calls, he thought something might have been wrong. He checked the time, it was 2:37am. He sighed knowing he wouldn't be heading back to sleep anytime soon. He shifted and Lo woke back up.
"You don't have to stay, but if you go I'm coming with."
"Nobody knows I'm home yet except for you." Marshall said and lightly placed his hand under her chin and smirked.
"What?"
"Are you tryna love me, then let me stare." Marshall said and she smiled. For the first time in a while she actually felt happy. She was hiding something from Marshall, part of her depression in the recent time but some of her happiness as well.
"Can we go to the store?" Lolita asked and he looked at her funny.
"Don't you know what time it is?"
"Has that ever stopped us?" She questioned and kissed him. He wrapped his arms around her and sniffed her shirt.
"You always smiled so nice, Lo." Marshall breathed out and she grinned.
"So are we going now?"
"Yes, dear."
Store
Lolita and Marshall walked into the store and then immediately went their separate ways. She floated to the feminine hygiene area and picked up a few things. She walked to the chip section and grabbed hot Cheetos and cream cheese. She walked to self checkout and then walked towards the exit waiting on Marshall. He reappeared with stuffed animals and candy in his hands and then he checked out. They walked to the car and he grinned.
"Are those for the kids?" She asked and he sat quietly.
"Yes, especially if you're one of them." He said and they chuckled.
"If that's the case I'm two of them." She said and he laughed.
"You ready?" He asked and she nodded. She listened to the pitter patter on the windows as the rain started pouring. Just as she started to doze off they arrived back at the apartment. He took all the bags up for her and they walked up the stairs. They walked into her room and closed the door before enveloping each other.
"I love you girl."
"I can't believe all that we've been through." She said and kissed his cheeks.
"Destiny keeps leading me back to you." He said and then slapped her butt softly.
"Marshall, I gotta tell you something... I don't know if you're gonna believe me though." Lolita said and he sat down on her bed and frowned.
"What's going on?" He asked and she immediately started crying. She couldn't stop it, the sniffles and looks at the ceiling were not pushing them back in at all. She found herself choking on words and she just grabbed a bag and then went into the bathroom. She opened her cabinet and she pulled a pregnancy test out from under the sink and set it down.
"I can take another one, please don't leave me." She said and pulled out four more from under the sink. Marshall looked at her and then the tests and looked back at her. He walked towards the counter and looked at the tests that all had plus signs and two lines. He placed his hand by hers and pulled her in.
"Lolita, I know this is mine." He said and she just started balling.
"You don't know what I went through with him." She cried and fell against his shoulder. He moved his hand and placed it on her belly.
"I know, Lo, I know." He wrapped his arms around her.
March 19, 2000
Lolita sat on the kitchen counter and looked at the two pregnancy tests. She always thought her first child would be with Marshall, she lost her virginity to him, he was her first everything except for now. She knew it wasn't his, they hadn't barely even talked since he married Kim. But here she was, wishing again. She felt tears falling from her eyes as she sighed. She was guessing that she was three months along but due to the stress of being with Don, she wasn't really sure. She heard keys going into the door and in walked Don. She wiped her tears quickly but it was too late, he could feel it as soon as he walked in.
"Hey girl, what's wrong with you?" He asked approaching her. He lifted his hand and she flinched before letting him place his hand on her cheek.
"Don, I'm pregnant." She said and he frowned up.
"With my baby?" He questioned and she felt a rage in her body.
"Who else's good it be?"
"Marshall." He said bluntly and she hopped off the counter. She could usually hold her tongue but something in her was very defensive for her child.
"You've gotta be fucking kidding me, Donovan. This is what we do? This is what the fuck we do? All the bitches you got your dick dirty with and you wanna accuse me of cheating with a dude that's married and I don't even really talk to!" She exclaimed.
"Why you always bringing up what I did? You slept with him right before we got together you think I think that's just gonna stop Lolita!" He screamed and pushed her.
"Don't put your fucking hands on me, Donovan. This is supposed to be a good thing for us, we can finally start our family."
"Lo, for being someone you've gotten hit by on more than one occasion, why the hell would you want me of all people to father your child."
"You're my man." She mumbled quietly and then sighed.
"You know what, I'm sorry, Lo."
"No you meant it, you meant every damn word." She said and grabbed her keys. She walked toward the door.
"Lolita please." Don said as she opened the door.
"You're just gonna leave?" He asked and she sighed looking at him. She stepped back into the house tears falling and closed the door.
Present
"Everything I went through with him and now I'm in your arms... I don't know if you're any fucking better." She said and felt the tears pour down even more.
"I wanted to have kids with you since we were younger, Lo. I'm here and if you and Don would've had a baby and he dipped I would've treated it like I treat you and like I treat Hailie." Marshall said and he wrapped his arms even tighter.
"I'm so tired, Marshall. I just want someone to actually love me." She cried out.
"I'm so sorry, I wish I could've done things differently. If I wouldn't have left you dry, you would've never gone through any of that with Don. I'm so sorry." He said and for one of the few times she actually felt and saw him cry and so she started to cry too. She grabbed his hand and pulled him back into the room and they laid on her bed and cried with each other.
Morning
December 15, 2001
The sunrises were Lolita's favorite part of the room and so naturally despite crying herself to sleep that night, she was the first to awaken. Marshall was laying on her chest and his phone was on the charger on her side. She looked at the floor mostly at his unfinished project for his girls. She sat up and moved the grown man child into a few pillows before moving herself down onto the floor to help move the process along. She started sorting and as she was almost done her phone started ringing.
"This call will be recorded and monitored, I have a collect call from Donovan LeAnto Clark an inmate at a Michigan State Prison. To accept the call please press 1." Lolita pressed 1 with raised eyebrows and irritation.
"Lolita, I know I'm probably the last one you want to hear from."
"What do you want?"
"Listen to me, I'm sorry for everything I did. I'm sorry that I killed our baby. I'm very sorry Lo."
"Is that all, Donovan."
"Lolita, pleas-" she hung up and sighed. She wished she would've left her phone to die just like he did her. She heard Marshall start to stir and he sat up.
"Hey, today is the day." She said and he nodded.
"Can I have some water or something?" He asked as he stood up and walked into the bathroom. Lolita stood up and walked out into the living room and then into the kitchen. Jenny and Kalia were just laying on the couch quietly watching TV.
"Jenny, you want some water or something?" Lolita asked as she grabbed a cold water out the fridge.
"Yeah let me and Kai Kai get some juice." Lo pulled out two cups and poured cranberry juice in one and orange juice in the other. She set them on the coffee table in front of them and then went to the back.
"Lo, are you on your period, you seem a tiny bit bloated?" Jenny asked and Lo raised a brow.
"I'm feeling a bit gassy yes, period, no." She said and walked into the room and closed the door.
She walked to the bathroom door and opened it looking at Marshall looking at himself as tears were coming down his face. He'd look down briefly but then look right back up.
"Marshall, why are you crying?" She asked placing his water on the counter and wrapping her arms around him.
"I'm so tired, Lolita. I'm tired of hurting you and not living with you completely. I'm tired of fucking our shit up." He said and turned around to face her.
"We can fix some of that. We can't fix what happened to us but we can make memories and new living arrangements. There were days were you said you didn't marry wanna anyone, days were you didn't want to have kids. Things change when you go from a boy to a man. A girl to a woman." Lo said and wiped his tears. They walked out the bathroom and then started working on the girls gifts again. As they wrapped up, Jenny came and poked her head into the room.
"Hey, Lo we're gonna head out." Jenny said and waved.
"Bah-bye auntie." Kai Kai said and hugged her before closing the door and leaving the apartment.
"Who called you this morning?"
"Donovan." She said quickly and Marshall looked at her.
"Why?"
"To apologize."
"Why don't you have the prison number blocked?"
"I don't know, he doesn't call often and it's the same thing every time." Lo said and Marshall nodded.
"Look, Lo, I don't like that."
"It's part of recovery, Marshall. Part of mine, some people want to be hidden because they're scared that their abuser might get out and come for them. He's got natural life, and it's not just because of me and it's not just my case. He's never getting out. You know that." Lo said and Marshall nodded.
"I know, I just don't like it. How do I know you're not gonna go see him?"
"I am at least once, I was with the guy for a little bit. I only plan on once. To say my peace."  She said and he looked down.
"Alright." Marshall said and then picked up the girls gifts.
"Let's go get showered and then dressed and then we can go to the house."
2 Hours Later
Lolita was recording on Marshall's camera.
"Helllllo everyone watching in the future. I am Lolita Kinnings. I am 29 years young, I'm pregnant for the first time by this man." She moved the camera to Marshall and he looked at her briefly as he drove.
"Ain't he cute. I'm cuter tho. Right now we are heading to his house-"
"Our house."
"Our house to go give our kids these gift baskets, a sorry for being gone so long. But yes, me and Marshall are having a baby. We have to schedule a doctors appointment but it's happening. It's our time I guess. I'm ready to be a mom, my eggs were catching a chill." Lo said and Marshall chuckled.
"So future whoever is watching this, Lolita and I did not plan this but we aren't mad either. I wanted a child with her since I could remember." Marshall said, Lolita smiled and everything in her heart felt right.
They pulled up to the house and walked to the door with the gifts and opened it. They walked into the living room and put the stuff down. Marshall walked up to her and wrapped his arms around her.
"Now we wait." He said and they sat down.