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Chapter Fifteen

Adrianna's Pov
"Now back to business!" J shouted loudly across the table and I flinched hard from sitting at the end of the large table beside J I was so into my broken thoughts I forgot where the hell I was.

I blinked briefly and I felt my hands shake a bit when I looked across the room and table.

J looked at me for a quick second his eyes going soft for a moment he briefly rubbed my covered up leg. "Sorry doll baby." he whispered I slowly nodded trying to keep calm and relax.

J smiled a bit focusing more on his goons it's been such a different time for me now.

I'm still very careful about everything around me. My anxiety soared into the sky so much that it is as bad as having medication and having anxiety attacks.

It's been a few months and I don't know why but I came back with J because he said he loved me too but I'm not sure what we are.

I think we are together but I'm not sure, I still have a feeling he is using me for one thing and one thing only.

I'm just not sure what. He slowly is changing it is a work in progress but there's no changing the clown prince of Gotham I thought.

Harley her hate will continue to grow but I believe she can never touch me or hurt me ever again.

I blinked some more rubbing the old self-harm marks knowing I won't ever do that again. "For the next week there's more heists we haven't done anything in months and its starting to bug me." J growled out to them.

I locked eyes with Chase seeing him look bored but he had to hide it. I giggled quietly and I saw Chase smile at me making me smile.

Chase is my only best friend here he is the only one he gets me. He was really upset when he found out I came back but he slowly accepted me back like with Frost too.

"That's all more crimes need to go up you're all dismissed." J snapped and I watched everyone get up fast leaving. So many people fear J when in that deep cold heart he is a little softy at best.

J helped me up sighing a bit "you know sometimes kitten you are a distraction." J called to me and I looked at him confused.

"I didn't talk this time J." I called worried that he was mad and he shook his head.

"Your anxiety I am always thinking about it you are so much jumpier then I would like." He explained chuckling a bit.

He shook his head "you wanna help me with work I could use your brains." J chuckled his laugh and I smiled a little bit.

"Let me see J?" I asked when he pulled me towards his office slamming the door open and he showed me some papers he had which I scooped up studying them.

"You know cupcake why don't you wanna be insane like me we could be the king and queen of Gotham we would be feared," J exclaimed rolling his sleeves up exposing his pale skin to me.

"You and Harley are already the queen and king of Gotham J," I muttered wondering what the hell these papers were.

"And besides I don't like killing people," I explained to him he growled.

"Me and Harley aren't together cupcake I've told you that we are just partners now, and don't say you don't enjoy killing people you almost killed your sister a few months back," J called to me making me flinch of the violent memory the gunshot leaving a trigger in me.

I shook my head "I didn't kill her she's still alive and she's crazy like you I'm surprised you didn't pick her before." I told him confused biting the end of the pen signing J's name for him.

J scoffed "you have heard of the saying opposites attract." J called to me and I flicked my eyes up at him meeting his blue ones nodding.

"Who hasn't." I called with a smile he nodded smirking.

"I guess that worked with me you're so innocent, nice, sweet the opposite of me and its what I grew to love and get more crazy about." J exclaim to me making me end up laughing a bit finishing up with the papers when J came over beside me and leaned in the desk laying his head in my shoulder looking at the papers.

"Thank you cupcake." J cooed when I chuckled slowly threading my fingers in his green hair.

"Your welcome J," I muttered when he was humming a bit the deep hums rumbling.

"J," I whispered and he hummed meaning he was listening I blinked in a daze.

"What are we?" I asked him slowly looking down at him J chuckled grinning "cupcake
we are together and will be forever Adrianna."