SLEEPWALKER (NEW) (Adommy)

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Tommy's POV

I got up, getting dressed. I slid simple black skinny jeans on and a shirt. Then putting my make up on.  I grabbed my backpack and headed downstairs. I didnt bother to eat anything.  I haven't been feeling like i need to eat. Like i don't feel the hunger in me. It could be because i haven't gotten high in awhile. I usually only really have an appetite after i smoke.  Sometimes i have to force myself to eat just so that i dont starve to death. Even though i can't feel the hunger i still need to eat because its what every human being needs to survive ,and eventually if you don't eat, whatever fat you have left your body will just start eating that away. 

I looked at the time. 5:58. I sigh. Seeing my mom, passed out on the couch. She looks so.. Depressed. Little bits of weed in a baggie on the table. Its nice that my mom can provide me with the stuff that gives me an escape. I walk out shutting the door behind me.  Walking down the grass to the sidewalk, waiting for my bus. I had a field trip today. To the mountains. Interesting for a field trip but since theres really only a week of school left its a "fun" trip to take to celebrate.  I looked around. The sky started to light up to a dim blue. Making things easier to see. I saw my bus coming down my street. I waited, it stopped opening the  doors and I walked up the steps and sat in the seat all the way in the back next to my friend Sutuan but i sat by the window while hes in the middle of the seat.  "Hey"he smiled at me. "Hey"I smiled back.  "Are you excited? " he asked looking at me. I set my backpack down between my legs on the floor. "Excited? about what? "I remark.  "The trip" he says in a obvious tone. "Oh, um i guess" i say shrugging my shoulders. 

"You guess?  Come on Tommy be excited for once, school is almost over you should be happy. " he says giving my shoulder a little nudge then messing with my hair . i sigh.

"Im only happy when I'm high Sutuan" I say with a slight smirk. "Well, aren't we all? "He laughs and i laugh with him. "Speaking of we should get high together again sometime, it was amazing the last time we did." He says giving me a smile. He is so cheerful today. "Yea we should and it really was. Im glad I have that stuff as my escape. You know without it i don't know if i would know how to deal with myself. My mom knows how i get when i don't smoke for awhile.  I get depressed and my anxiety starts eating at me. And im just not happy" I explain.  He looks at me with a sincere look. "Well  you're lucky you have a mom who helps you get the stuff you need.  If my mom knew that i get high, its my ass getting beat. My mom would always-. I start zoning out. Sutuan always did this. Whenever we talked about something that.. Is private to us he then starts to rant a little. Its not that i dont care because i do, just sometimes its nice because then i can think to myself. I felt my phone vibrate.  I looked at my notifications.

One new message from Mom.

I typed in my password looking at the message.

"Hey, hope ur ok, have fun on ur field trip, tonight, when u get home dinner will b ready and I'll have about 5gs for us. I know uve been going through a lot lately I got as much as i could.  Love u 😘❤"

"Im fine mom.  Ok ive been getting a little depressed lately, so its good u got that. I'll eat dinner after i smoke.  You know how my appetite is. Love u to.

I sent the text then closing my phone.  When i looked over Sutuan had his headphones in and was playing on his phone laying his head on my shoulder .I smiled. I put my ear buds in and played my music, as gay as it looked I was running my fingers through Sutuans hair. I looked out the window,  I started thinking. My mom does as much as she can for me.  And i know she does go through a lot but she does do other drugs. That arent good at all. Weed is nothing like any of the other drugs she does. These kinds can kill her. Not saying weed can't, if you smoke way to much then you can die from it, I think, so that I was told by my dad.

I just worry. Hopefully i can get her of the others so that it only comes down to her doing weed. I sigh. Trying to relax and not feel so depressed and hurt.  Its hard. When i think of my whole life. The people who hurt me, betrayed me, lied to me. I just want one person to truly trust. Dont get me wrong I trust Sutuan but not completely.  Even hes a little questionable to me sometimes.  I learned to never give someone my full trust or dedicate myself to them anymore. I just can't every time its too risky.

I opened my eyes looking at everything passing by quickly.  I saw a boy. With spiked jet black hair, a grey hoodie on,black skinny jeans,  small gauges, and eyeliner on. His eyes were so blue. He was just standing in the middle of the road, we were driving up on a mountain hill road.  The bus swerved and went off the road through the rail and fell off a cliff. The next thing i knew i couldn't breathe

I couldn't scream, my whole body shocked, paralyzed.  Then everything faded quickly.

At this moment.. I think everything was over.