*Tyler’s POV*
“Tyler I think I… I think I have feelings for you…” and tears started to stream down his beautiful face. Was he serious? I could not believe my ears right now.
“But why are you crying? Why is that wrong?” I asked him. Maybe he hates the fact that he likes me… Ouch.
“It’s not wrong,” he sobbed. “I just… I know that you don’t feel the- the same way and…”
“What makes you think that, Troye? Maybe I do, maybe I have liked you since I started watching your videos last year, and maybe you’re wrong if you think that I didn’t even know who you were since that party. You are dead wrong.” At this point we were sitting on the couch facing each other, staring at each other’s eyes as if there was nothing else around.
I didn’t want Troye to think that I didn’t like him back, because clearly I did. I used to watch his videos all the time and I always thought he was straight, until today. I remember nothing from the party but the blue of his eyes and his beautiful smile, and I think that meant something. I knew that meant something.
“A-are you serious?” He asked, his voice breaking. I nodded.
He half smiled and I wiped the tears from his cheeks with my thumb. I then noticed that he hadn’t answered the most important question.
“Can you please tell me why you were crying?” I placed my hand on his shoulder.
“I- I just… I feel afraid.”
*Troye’s POV*
I- I just… I feel afraid.” I said, sobbing.
“Afraid of what?”
“I’m afraid of what will happen next, I’m afraid of what people will think and just… Everything that might happen.” I said, a little too fast and worriedly.
And I was indeed afraid. Tyler didn’t know yet, nor I knew if I was going to tell him, but he was the first male I have fallen in love with since I came out. He’s twenty four and I’m only eighteen, he lives here in America and I live on the other side of the world. How would this work? Will it even happen? I decided to keep these questions to myself at this moment, since this was already too much for one day.
Tyler sighed. “I understand how afraid you feel, it’s just normal to feel that way sometimes. But we will never know how this will turn out if we don’t give it a shot… And no matter what you choose, just do what makes you happy.”
His words always made me feel better, him just being him made me feel better. He pulled me into a comforting hug and then I went to the bathroom and washed my face. All this suffering was just not worth it, I decided to leave all my worries behind and just relax a little bit since it was starting to get on my nerves.
When I got out of the bathroom I saw Tyler undoing the large bed, and I realised it was almost 11:30pm.
“I should get going, it’s getting kind of late.” I said with my head down, I never wanted to leave his side.
He just stayed silent and nodded a little and then smiled. I said goodbye and opened the door to start making my way to my hotel room. I had my head down while I was walking through the large silent hallway and all of a sudden I heard footsteps behind me. Someone grabbed my arm, I turned around to see exactly what I wanted to see.
“I just can’t let you sleep alone when you’re like this. You need some company” Tyler’s voice came out almost as a whisper.
“Are you sure you’re okay with that?”
“I’m more than okay. I just want to make sure that you remain fine and don’t go back to crying… I want you to forget about every single worry you have right now, and just get some rest and-“
I placed my finger on his lips. “You really don’t have to say more, Ty. I couldn’t be more thankful to have you as a company” we both smiled, just looking at each other’s eyes in the middle of that long empty hallway. I decided to break the silence.
“Race you to the room!” I exclaimed and I started running down the hallway, soon I heard Tyler’s footsteps following mine.
“You’re so dead!” He said from behind, I laughed.
We were exhausted when we both got to the room and we just kept laughing for some reason.
“I won, you basic bitch!” Tyler joked.
“It was a tie okay?!” I poked his side. “And I am way more fab so therefore, I win!”
We kept joking and laughing at stupid things while we were just lying on the bed.
It was nothing too special or weird, we were just having some amazing time together laughing and going through tumblr. I didn’t need anything romantic or cheesy, just spending some time with Tyler was more than enough. But what was this exactly? Were we more than friends or… Just friends? There were still so much questions left, but this moment just felt so right, like there was no time for worrying or crying.
Tyler and I kept talking and looking through tweets until we both felt drowsy, and we got into a really comforting night of sleep.
Not very interesting buuut just wait until next chapter, I got some good things coming ;) follow my twitter (@donutyler) and VOTE if you would like to know what will happen next! New chapter tomorrow as always :)
ily all, hope you enjoyed -Em <3
