Early Autumn

Chapter 1

"Pleeeeeeeease!"  Lindsey begged me from across our small kitchen.  "Please, please, please come to Downtown tonight."  

I did my best to maintain my glare at her from over my coffee cup, but I could feel my resolve weakening and I suspected that Lindsey could sense it as well.  "No mama, I told you never again, not after last time."  

Lindsey worked at a lesbian club called Downtown, tending bar.  Once a month they do a kink night there and Lindsey desperately wanted me to come out tonight for it.  I used to go to Downtown all the time, after all my bestie worked there and it was one of the better gay bars in Denver, but after my ex and I split I haven't gone out much.  A couple of months ago Lindsey had talked me into coming out for a kink night.  Everything had started fine, until I found out my ex was hosting the kink night. She had cheated on me with some slutty rope bunny she met at a rigging event.  The last thing I wanted was to stick around and watch her do demonstrations with the bitch she left me for.  

"How many times do I have to apologize for that, Jess?  How was I supposed to know she  was going to be there?"  

"Seriously?"  I asked in disbelief.  Not only did Lindsey work there but her current girlfriend and Domme was the owner of the bar and was who organized the kink nights.  "I feel like at some point it probably came up between your guys' marathon sex sessions."  

"But you know I zone out after those sessions" Lindsey whined.  It was true.  Lindsey was a complete space cadet as she came out of sub space.  Truthfully, she was just as bad under normal conditions.   I had often heard Heather, Lindsey's girlfriend,  complain that Lindsey couldn't focus unless she had a fistful of Lindsey's hair.  "Besides," she continued, "what were you going to do tonight if you stayed home?  Have a glass of wine and masturbate to Lucy Lu movies?" 

"No," I shot back. "That was last night. Tonight is a bottle of white and a date with either Link or a three way with the Mario brothers." 

"What if I said, I know for a fact that your ex won't be there tonight."  Lindsey pressed.  "She's up in Loveland." 

I clinched my teeth.  The best part of the Denver gay scene is that its a small tight community, and smaller still if you add in kink.  The worst part of the Denver gay scene is that its a small tight community.  It didn't surprise me that Lindsey knew my ex would be in Loveland.  And if she was in Loveland, it meant she was spending the weekend at her cabin with my replacement.  I couldn't just sit at home and play Nintendo. Well not now anyways, knowing she was having a romantic get away.  How pathetic would that make me?  Grrrrr.  I clinched my teeth still harder, Lindsey had me beat and I knew it.  "Fine," I said in resignation. "but I am riding with you, and I fully  intend to get shmammered.  Which means you will be on full drunk friend babysitting duty.  Holding my hair if I puke, rubbing my back, letting me cry on your shoulder. Literally if need be."  I said, counting on my fingers as I went.  

"EEEEEEEEEEE! Deal!"  Lindsey shouted as she charged me for a bear hug.  I had to quickly hold my mug out of the way, else I would have had scalding coffee spilled across the girls.  Last thing I wanted was to have splotchy red marks across my chest when I went out tonight.  

"Okay mama, that's enough, I still need to breath," I said patting her back. 

"EEEEEEEEE!" She squealed again, "I am so excited you are coming out!! Its been forever, everyone is going to be so excited!  And you can totally get emotional tonight. You don't let out your emotions enough."

I couldn't help but to smile at Lindsey and  her excitement.  She had been my best friend since high school and my flatmate since we graduated.  I called her mama, because if anyone tried to mess with me, she turned into a straight up mama grizzly.  I was secretly grateful that I was getting out of the apartment tonight.  And if things went bad, I was totally going to get shmammered and make her take care of me, which would ruin her fun with Heather for the night.  If I wasn't having fun, she certainly wasn't going to either.  Lindsey was also right about me not letting out my emotions.  There was very few people I let my guard down around, and even then it wasn't very often.  Ever since her my guard has been up extra high.