Silence

I am terrified of the silence. Some people have an intense phobia of the darkness. I, on the other hand, am a nyctophiliac with an intense phobia of silence. God know if there's even a word for that.

Most people laugh when I tell them, or ask, "what about in exams?" or whatever. The answer? Well, something like that I can deal with, because you can hear pen on paper, and I am focusing on something.

But at night, the silence is at its most raw. Silence is all encompassing, and just so... there. Most people who aren't nyctophiliacs or don't have a fear of the darkness barely notice darkness. But, at least I find, people always notice silence. 

Silence is always there. It lies behind every word, every footstep, every beat in a song. It never leaves.

That's why I find it so terrifying. It never goes away. It never leaves, not even for one second. It is everywhere. It is so all encompassing that you can barely even begin to comprehend it.

That's my mindset any way.

And I guess you could make the same argument for a far of the dark, and I respect that, but I'm fine with the dark. I love it in fact. But the truth, and the point of this essay, is that silence never leaves. 

No matter what you do.

It never leaves.

And I am absolutely terrified of that fact.