Take Me Back

Take Me Back - Part 2

You see, everyone wonders how people would react at their own funeral. Yet here I am, I'm here at my own funeral; my eyes scan the crowd of people. Most were crying, like my family, except my sister. Kimberly, she was in shock. I can't really blame her. I would be shocked as well if my sister were stabbed and left to die alone. My boyfriend, Ross was there, as well as Valerie. I could see the shock and sadness within their eyes as well, don't get me wrong, everyone carried sadness within themselves but these 3 people. They were the ones carrying sorrow the most. I shook my head as my funeral had started, I sat down beside my own mother, I saw her look right at me. I could tell she could feel me, but inside her own head, she's probably thinking she's crazy, thinking that she can feel the presence of her own daughter. Who wouldn't think they're crazy if that would have happened to them?

Before the funeral was even half done people were already crying a sea of tears, metaphorically of course. Not literally, because if everyone did, well we would have floods every day. My attention snapped back to the funeral, I saw Ross walk out. Tears streaming down his face, I felt bad. My body just wanted to run towards him and tell him that it's okay, but then again I can't. I just can't interfere with things that happen in the living world. Yet I found myself running after him, he stopped by his car and he sat down. Continuous tears running down his face, I sat down next to him and hugged him, I could feel him tense up and look directly at me. But yet again, he couldn't see me. No one could see me, it was heart-breaking knowing that I'm watching everyone I love deal with my death and there's nothing I can do to comfort them. Because all I am is a ghost. And we sat there for what felt like eternity and I closed my eyes.

I rolled my eyes and laughed at my friends. We all sat in McDonalds; it was after our graduation we were all celebrating with McDonalds. I placed my head down on Ross' shoulder as I stared at my 3 amazing friends. I'm glad I have them, because I wouldn't be who I am today if I didn't have them. I looked at Valerie and smiled at her, she smiled back at me.

"Hey K, which uni have you applied for anyways? And have you gotten into any?" Valerie asked me while leaning over the table.

"Well, I've applied for Brown, Harvard and Yale, I have also been accepted into all 3. I just have to pick which one I am going to, and honestly. It's an extremely hard choice, because they're all great schools with the majors I want. So it'll take time for me to choose. While you Val have gotten a scholarship into Yale." I wink at her, we both burst out laughing. We both always play around with each other; we have known each other for years. We're even comfortable with each other like if one was in the toilet and the other having a shower. We were completely comfortable with each other, that is how close we are with one another. I'm just glad to still have her as my best friend.

The night went on, we had stayed in Maccas until it closed. It was already 1 by the time I got to my apartment. My eyes looked over to Ross, my mouth stretched into a smile and I gave him a hug and kiss before going. I yawned and wave goodbye to my friends, I was puzzled as to why Val wasn't coming along. But I just guessed she was going to spend some time with her boyfriend. I shrugged it off and I turned away, walking back to my apartment. I then remembered that I had forgotten my jacket in Ross' car so I went to his car where I found him kissing another one of my friends. I stood there in shock, and after a while he saw me and his eyes opened wide with shock and surprise. He tried to come after me but I ran up the stairs and towards my apartment door then I went inside.