Dear Lauren,
I don't know about anything anymore. I don't care about anything anymore. I feel alone again. I feel like no one cares about me and what would happen if I leave this shitty world. Some fans will be upset yes but who will actually really care about me? I mean you left and you never looked back on me...on us. I tried to explain everything and try to fix things between Dinah, Ally, Normani and I, but they turned their backs on me as well. My friends are out having the time of their life and I'm here. I'm here in bed or writing sad songs all the time. I can't stop feeling sad Lauren. I want to stop or I want something to take the pain away. I don't know if everything I'm saying right now makes sense cause I'm crying my eyes out and I'm just saying things from the top of my head. I want to be happy. I try to be but, I just can't. Nothing makes me happy anymore. I don't know what to do Lauren. I'm having these bad thoughts in my head and they are just of me killing my self. Should I? I mean why shouldn't I? I always fuck everything up and I am just the sad girl that is never happy. The girl that picks on herself a lot. The girl that no one loves. I'm no one. I have pills in my hands and I'm debating if I should take them or not.
~Camila C.
