If someone asks we're just friends(Connor Franta fanfic)

Facing the truth

I woke up with a horrible headache.Trough a blur i saw Connor's mom infront of me.She was sitting beside my bed.I didn't know what happened at first but when i saw police officers around me I knew what happened instantly.Why would he do this?Is he alive?Is he in prison?I didn't know which was worse.If he is alive,he will try to kill me.If he is dead,I'll lose another person from my past.I was too numb to even breath,don't know how this happened.Maybe i lost a lot of blood?That would explain this numb feeling.

-"Miss Anastasia,right?" one of the police officers said to me

-"Ye....Ye..ss" i couldn't believe that saying such a simple word could be such a struggle for me

-"How are you felling?Can you answere some questions?"

-"I'll tr...try"

Connor's mom then left the room and i pulled my bed up a little bit.I saw my face in the mirror.Pale,scared face was infront of me.Is this me?How am I so afraid of a person i was so close with?Is this even possible?

-"So,you knew Mr. Jimmy Holmes?"

-"Yes,we were friends"

-"Were you together at one point?"

-"A long long time ago,yes.But that didn't last."

-"Do you know why would he do this?"

-"No."

-"Was he threatening you?"

-"Umm,one night he came to me and he was upset.My best friend,you probably heard of a girl suicide in a boarding school" he nodded "well,she was my best friend,she committed suicide infront of me.Jimmy loved her and he thought i was the reason she killed herself."

-"Why did she commit suicide?"

-"She loved my boyfriend,too much.Umm,she wanted to talk to me about it and i think she wanted from me to give her him.Don't know why."

-"Ok,thank you.Have a nice rest"

-"Wait,is Jimmy alive?"

Without a word he left.A couple of seconds later,Conn came in.

-"Heyy how are you?"

-"Numb,really really numb"

-"Well,you scared me a lot" he said sitting next to me slowly putting my hand in his and kissing it.

-"Tell me one thing"

-"Sure anything"

-"Is Jimmy alive?"

-"Look,sweetie,he died.When you passed out because of blood loss the police even couldn't stop him from trying to attack you.So they shot him.I'm sorry"

I couldn't belive what I have just heard.

-"The police was doing a investigation and they found out that after K's death he was involved in drugs.Selling,using,everything around him was made of drugs.When he attacked you,he was on a large dose of it."

-"Connor,leave please.I want to rest and just sleep for a while"

-"Sure,call me if you need anything" Connor left kissing my forehead softly.I could tell he was soo worried and he tried to hide it as always not to worry me.I  was too exhausted.Even if i wanted to be awake,i couldn't.Floating away on the ship of dreams I heard a cry for help.At the end of a long tunel a voice was pulling me towards it.I saw a familiar figure.It was Jimmy.He was standing still but his face was crying for help.

-"Please,you're the only one that can help me"he said trough crying

-"What can I do for you?"

-"Before the shadow gets me pull me back pleaseee"

-"You're alredy gone,you lost me when you thought i was responsible for K's death.I was gone at that moment,pretend you don't know me"

-"That wasn't me"

-"I'm sorry,you "loved me" but you never even try to listen to me.On drugs or not you wanted to kill me"

When i said that a shadow black as the night grabbed him and pulled him to it.I felt like someone was strangling me.I couldn't breath,so in panic i woke up wet like i jumped in the lake.

-"Are you ok?" i heard Connor's panicking voice

-"I'm fine now."

-"Come on I'll help you change.You're soaking wet"

Finally after all this time i could breath in piece.I felt relief.I had my life back.Even Connor was surprised how happy i was.He was having fun with me.It felt like old times.His touch,his kiss,was the only thing that gave me air.He chased the demons away.He kept me with him that night we didn't separate our kiss,touch for one second and i really missed that.The healing process is infront of me but as long as i have him by my side i don't need to worry.

TO BE CONTINUED...