Nemiah's POV (pronounced Knee-my-ah)
The longer i sit and wait the more pain i endure .
The more i constantly forgive , the more I end up in the same predicament .
It seems like as fast as everything progresses I'm back in rock zone .
Alone.
Battered.
Empty.
I look around my small apartment and take in the scenery . Clothes everywhere along with empty hennessy bottles . I haven't bothered eating because well, I'm not hungry .
With my blunt in my left hand between my index and middle finger , my half empty henny bottle in my right and fresh tears streaming down my face I felt and looked horrible.
I just can't believe he tried to kill me , am I not good enough for him . Or was I just too naive to leave before things could get out of hand ? How could i have been so damn stupid and let it get this far . Why didn't I just leave ? Well because I was in love , well I thought I was . Austin was my rock , he was everything I ever dreamed of . He was my go to , my refuge and the only person who accepted me for who I was and my past . Months in we were fine , for months he never hit me until one night I had made him so angry to the point where he couldn't hold back any more and he slapped the taste out of my mouth . From that day forth it began , my life had been ruined and the one person i thought would bring joy to my life brought nothing but lies , pain and excuses .
No one knew of the abuse except my best friend Nylah . She always told me to leave but i can't I love him . I have too much pride to go back home. Sometimes I just wish I would've listened to my parents and stayed home , not only did I leave my parents but I left my dreams behind all because of love . I was too young to comprehend that one wrong move could've ruined my future and there was nothing left for me to do about it but move forward . Once I had moved and left my parents his whole personality changed , like he had been faking all that time just to get me where he needed me and sadly he succeeded .
But I guess I should have seen it coming and left but love had me trapped and I could never build up the courage to leave . The consequences of leaving him had me rethinking my decision and Everytime he would say how sorry he is and every-single-time my dumb ass gave in without hesitation . But odly this time it just wasn't the same...
"You stupid bitch " Austin shouted as he slammed my head into the wall . I let out a loud scream because of the aching pain that followed .
"I told you I didn't cheat asshole " i mumbled through gritted teeth. That only added fuel to the fire .
He picked up my petite body and threw me into the wall and rushed over to me with powerful strides . I held onto my sides . The pain surging through my body has me in tears . He stands over me fumming , to say I'm afraid is an understatment . He wraps his big hands around my neck and starts choking and punching me while I try my hardest to get out of his grip . After what feels like hours he lets go . With my hand on my neck I try to keep my breathing steady but instead My body goes limp on the bloody tiles and he kicks me one last time in my side .
I know what i must to .
Leave , Forever.
I've hidden bruises , visited the hospital to get my head stitched, got casts and many more . But I'm done being a punching bag , I'm tired of being used. It doesn't help that I'm still a virgin and won't give him nothing that's why he's cheating but if I'm being honest I dont care . I stand up from the floor and stretch walking in the direction of my room, I start packing my clothes in a suitcase . I'm going back to Miami. I can't stay in Detroit anymore . I miss my family , my job, my bestfriend and my friends .
I need to go.
I grabbed all my necessities and left my apartment and stopped next door to tell the landlord Im leaving . I hail a cab and it pulls over .
On my way to the airport i couldn't help but think that this can be a new beginning for me to uplift myself . No one will stand in my way of bettering myself . I need time alone and I won't let anyone ruin that for me , not a man , family or friends . God has plans for me , plans to prosper and not to harm me and whiles I am working on myself I will surely find out what those plans are .
We had just arrived and I paid my cab fee and went to purchase a ticket .
I'm finally leaving and Im not turning back .
I boarded my plane and took my seat thinking about how my life is changing for the better .
I closed my eyes and fell asleep smiling .
I just left the the Love of my life in detroit .
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