Say Something (Im giving up on you) || Zarry

Chapter 4.5

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Zayn got out of his range rover after parking it behind the building where the art gallery was. He stayed there a bit, his back was leaning on his car as he stare at the backdoor. he let out a sigh and opened his car to get a pack of cigarette, deciding to take a smoke first before entering the battlefield.

So Im finally gonna see him again. The raven haired lad thought. To be honest, he doesnt know what to feel. He barely felt anything the past few years. Its like his heart got numb from all the pain he's been through when Harry left him. He shook his head from the memories his heart remembered as he exhale the last smoke from his second stick of cigarette. Yes, its his heart that remembers everything when it comes to harry, not his mind. It remembers everything, from all the happiness to all the pain. then it goes numb.

He's happy now, zayn. He's doing so good in his carreer now. something you've yet to accomplish. You'll never be good enough for him. All you could do is be happy for him. He thought as he finally decided to pull himself together. "Yea... I could do that. I'd be happy for him... Yea, thas what I'll do." He reminded himself. He took one last look on his reflection from the window of his car, making sure his quiff was perfect.

Zayn went in through the backdoor, his hands on his pocket as he walk in the corridor leading to one of the corners of the gallery. Zayn knew that this part of the gallery displays his early works, thats why he decided to go through the backdoor. When he was on his last steps of the corridor, he noticed a silhouette looking at one his paintings. He decided that he should probably atleast greet that person and introduce himself, since thats his purpose of being here anyway. he hurridly walked until he reached the end of the corridor.

He stopped dead on his track when his eyes concluded who it was. Zayn wanted to turn back, run as fast as he could back to his car but his heart was begging him to stay. His heart which was void from feeling anything for a long time, was begging him to stay. He didnt know what to do. He stood there, staring at the back of a tall figure of a man with curly hair and a bandana.

Be happy for him. His morale reminded him. He took a long breath to calm his heavy breathing and forced his feet to walk towards the person. He stopped halfway though, when he saw what painting the man was looking into.

"I painted that three years ago. You like it?" He asked. not really sure if it was the right question, but thats the best he could think of at the moment.

The man slightly turned his head, looking at zayn over his shoulder. "Y-you painted me?"

Zayn's heart pumped a lot of emotions, functioning again after a long time. The moment he saw the man's face, harry's face, he cant help himself from smiling at how much he wanted to see those face again. to stare into those deep, forest green eyes again. to kiss those pink lips again. to play with those curly locks again. after a long time, zayn managed to flash a genuine smile, something he hasnt done in a while. "I was gonna give you that for your 19th birthday, but I didnt got the chance."

Fuck. Zayn mentally cursed himself after he realised what he just said. This is not how it should be zayn. this is not being happy for him. dont remind him about the past.

Zayn didnt really know what to do anymore. His facade of 'being happy for harry' was slowly crumbling to pieces. All he knows right now is he wanted to touch him. So thats what he did. he rushed to harry and decided to hug him. to show how much he missed his harreh. but when he was about to pull him into the most bone crushing hug he ever gave in his life, he was slap by his brain the reality to his face. He left you, zayn. He didnt want you anymore. If you show him that you still love him, he might run away from you again. His eyes got void of all emotions. but he still managed to hug harry tho. he gave him the most awkward hug ever. "Its been a while, harreh" he said, trying to sound as casual as possible, immediately pulling out of the hug.

 A clattering noise was suddenly heard nearing the two lads. Zayn instinctively turned around to see what it was. saved by the bell. he thought, as he see perrie's figure approaching him, the noice coming from her pump heels.

Perrie. the one who helped zayn get through all the pain. They were once lab partners during highschool, but perrie had to transfer to another school due to her parents' work. She came back tho, after some time harry left and found an emotionally wrecked zayn at an old coffeeshop. After that they started hangin out til they became good friends, and yea I think you can tell the rest.

"Hi babe! I didnt know you knew Harry Styles!" She greeted, as zayn pulled her into a hug and kissed her forehead.

Perrie doesnt know anything about harry. When she met zayn for the second time at the coffee shop, zayn decided to keep everything about harry to himself, and he plans to keep it that way. He thinks that the reason harry left was because he wasnt good enough for him, and he didnt want to emabarass harry, who's already making a name for himself, by people knowing that he dated a good for nothing zayn. He also didnt want harry to feel akward so he came up with something safe to say.

"Yeah, we were good friends." Zayn informed her girlfriend.

Harry let out a hoarse laugh, causing zayn and perrie to look at him. "Yeah, good friends. reeeeeeeaaaaaaaally good friends." He said, as he walked past the couple.

Zayn was shocked and dumbfounded. he swore he just saw hurt in harry's eyes, and heard it in his voice. what was that? the raven haired lad thought.

Zayn's not dumb, or oblivious to harry's feelings, or insensitive. He just never assumes. You see, zayn here has a verry little faith in himself. He always thinks that no matter how hard he tries, people will always find something in him that will dissappoint them. thats why he never assumes, and tries to play it safe all the time.

But he sure as hell am confused now. What was that just now? Did he screw up again? Was harry mad?

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