The nightmare I dreamed of

Today we had an early release from school because the teachers were having a planning day to review the grades of students. These early releases meant to go to celebrate with friends or go to a shopping mall. But for me, I would rather go with my best friend to my house or the library to read. We could say that it didn't excite us much to go to parties or go to places too crowded. Mary, my best friend, was very quiet and very shy, unlike me. I was very open-minded and I loved to talk. She was completely the opposite.

That day Mary was going to come home with me, the way we used to do after school. My parents knew her well and loved her so they already knew that today she was coming to my place.

Since it was Friday, she will be spending the night at my place because on Saturday we will go to a water park that was about an hour away from my city.

Mary knew me perfectly. It took me a while to gain her trust. It was really difficult because she was really close-minded and shy. So for me it was hard to get close to her. At the end, we became friends and we know each other very well. But there is something that she doesn't know, something that no one knows, which would be my sexual orientation.

I discovered my lesbianism over a year ago. I discovered that I wasn't attracted to men and when I kissed my ex boyfriend Alberto I didn't feel very comfortable with it. After the breakup of my relationship with Alberto I met Fabiana. Fabiana was a bisexual girl who made me crazy. I met her at school. She was the assistant of the psychologist at our school.

Both of us got to know each other and she realized that I felt something for her so she began to get closer to me. We started a secret relationship because she knew that no one around me knew about my sexuality. And since my parents didn't support homosexuals I had to keep my relationship as a secret. Fabi and I had a relationship that lasted a few months. That was my first relationship with a woman but it was one of many of Fabi.

Time passed and she got tired of our secret love and she left me for another girl. I was torn inside. I loved her too much and I got too hurt but I couldn't let notice my pain because of my break up because people around me will notice something "weird" with my behavior towards what happened with Fabi.

I had to move on. My parents believed that Fabi was one of my best friends who came a lot to my house (that was the excuse I used so I could be with her without any trouble). When she stopped coming to my house my parents did nothing but wonder what had happened to her. I lied to them saying that she'd moved to another city and I'd lost contact with her. They stopped talking about it after I told them that.

Mary noticed how sad I was feeling with the "moving " thing of Fabi. She had known the reason of my sadness. Fabi. She knew Fabi but she always said that she didn't seem like a good person. Mary was right.

Mary was there for me while I was getting over my break up. After a few months, having overcome all this, I began to feel slightly attracted to Mary. I spent more time than usual with her, which made me slowly feel an attraction towards her. Mary was straight and she recently broke up with her boyfriend who was a jerk. She had a tough month full of sorrows and tears, which I wiped, and I supported her with my understanding and company. She was going through what I had gone through with Fabi. I knew exactly how that felt like.

I started to realize that I was in love with her but I appreciated too much our friendship to ruin it by a love that could be just a crush. I was not sure to tell her about my sexuality because I was afraid of losing her because of it. It had taken a while for me to build that trust between us and I really didn't want to ruin it.

We left the school and we headed to my apartment, walking, which were a few blocks away from here. When we walked together we made a nice contrast. Her thin body, her milk -white complexion and dark hair were something completely different than my curvy body, tanned complexion and green eyes. But her eyes were something spectacular. They were chocolate color but when she cried they became a dark brownish green. They were the most beautiful eyes but I hated to see her cry even though her eyes looked beautiful when she did.