~Notes~

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12/17/16
Song:   (For Whom The Bells Tolls- J. Cole)

Loneliness my only good friend,
The one person that doesn't leave me,
Sometimes I wonder if it did leave me would I be dead or would I have friends.

Just like the lyrics of the song I recommend on top:
"But what do you do when there's no place to turn? I have no one, I'm lonely, my bridges have burnt down
Lord, Lord
The bells getting loud, ain't nowhere to hide got nowhere to go, put away my pride tired of feeling low even when I'm high ain't no way to live, do I wanna die?
I don't know, I don't know"

I write them down because it's the way I think most of the time,
Because I don't know what to do most of the time,
Worried about the past and future not thinking about the here and now just contemplating on how or who am I supposed to be,
Growing up in a world where good is bad and bad is good where the teachings that my parents stoned and engraved in me are not what the same as the world that we live in,
How we should always love and forgive no matter what,
now I should say my parents are religious so there teachings came from the Bible,
And I lived by the rules my parents thought me,
I never questioned or said anything about them,
No matter what happened to me I stayed strong,
No matter what people did to me I forgave them and forgot about it,
I'm so kinda hearted and I get taken for granted sometimes that others see when I'm being used and they tell me to stop it but I don't because I believe that most people sometimes just need someone to be there when nobody else is and even when they use to me to pour there feelings out and just leave I don't care, why should, I like helping and that means to me doing what ever necessary to make a other person happy,

But what would I know I'm only 17.