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All the air was crushed out from my chest as I was hauled off my feet. The harder I tried to scream the more my throat felt like there were tiny knives piercing me. No sound but desperation escaped my lips. A shadow dashed all around me preparing for its final strike, unnatural snarls echoing in my ringing ears, surrounding me.
This is it. I'm going to die.
I could accept death knowing that I loved him and that by some impossible chance, he loved me...knowing that he was my final thought.

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Sometimes it was better to just be invisible

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Sometimes it was better to just be invisible. A ghost. To wade in the deep, bottomless pit of your own pain day by day. Sometimes, you choose certain waves to swim in, and sometimes they choose you. 

Sometimes they crash upon you wave after wave rigorously showing you no mercy. Sometimes you just have to suck it up and keep going because there is absolutely nothing else you can do. That was my reality, but I always pursued to never complain. 'It could be worse,' I'd tell myself. It will pass. 

I ached to go home to the comfort of my bedroom yet here I was, hiding among the shadows under a tree. The sun reigned high, a blinding contrast to the clear blue sky yet it wasn't bright enough to lighten my mood.

Students ran hectically around the fields playing violently against each other. Sweat patches dampened the backs of boys as they competitively shoved at each other in pursuit of the ball.

The 'popular' clique occupied the lunch tables on the far left side of the grass, gossiping amongst themselves nonchalantly.

It's not that I was jealous. I preferred to be completely alone than pushed around. In fact, I preferred self or small company altogether most of the time. It's what I was used to, unchallenging social circumstances.

Today was just one of those days. I should be better tomorrow? Probably not.

I closed my eyes and inhaled deeply, something smelled heavenly nearby. Maybe someone's baking in the economics building. Running my hands over the earth, I felt the small pebbles and dirt dance under my palms. I could hear the soft rustle of the tree's in the breeze.

"Lil! There you are! I've been looking all over for you what the hell!" Evelyn exclaimed jogging over to me, her curly shoulder-length brown hair blazing in the sun. 

Naturally, a smile crept on my face as she snapped me out of my reverie.

Evelyn had been my best friend for as long as I could remember. Without her eccentric and empathetic personality, I'd be a lost cause for sure. She'd always been in ways, my protector. In primary school I was always bullied for my braces and messy pigtails. Even now people spat insults at me without them. But Evelyn was always there to fend them off when she could or even took the beating with me. Her home was my home as mine was hers. She was my exception and I was the luckiest girl alive to have her as a best friend. It didn't make sense that she was so loyal to me.

But she wasn't superwoman every time. At times they found me when she wasn't around.

I blinked back into a daze as the traumatic memories flooded in from yesterday morning.

"Did you see the new guy? He's hot!-"
You waste of space!
"Like yeah, there's the Hemsworth's and that but this guy is like hotter than Taylor Lautner-"
Just kill yourself  Lilith!
"He's obviously way out of my league...and a douche but doesn't mean I can't stare at him-"
Loser just do everyone a favour and die!
"He's actually sort of scary but I dig that you know? He's got such gorgeous brown tan and black hair. All the girls are going crazy. These green eyes oh my you could have thought you were in a forest...not that he ever looks at you but-"
Hit her Em! Give her what she deserves! My turn!

"Lilith?! Earth to Lilith. Are you even listening to me-?"
Like a switch, I was snapped out of the fortress of my mind once again.
"Oh. Sorry? I zoned out".
"Are you okay?" She pressed.
Evelyn pivoted towards me scanning my face. I cringed away.
"Dammit Lil. You've been crying again. Who did it huh? Who did it?!" She shouted.
Standing, she shot daggers all around the fields as if she held a sword and all the might of one hundred men.
"Sit down Evelyn please" I begged pulling her down by her leg. "I'm over it".

"Lil seriously. You have to stop letting them stomp all over you. You're so beautiful don't let them get you down. Their just jealous that-" Evelyn gasped mid-sentence motioning behind me. "Look that's him!"

I giggled at her sudden mood swing, turning to face whoever Eve's new hottie of the month was.

And that's where the chaos all began.
I twisted my back round and met the eyes that simultaneously sent my thoughts on a rampage and silence.
My heart skipped a beat and fluttered hysterically making it hard to breathe.
Despite his luring eyes black as night, light bloomed inside of my chest that suffocated me just seconds before.
I gasped aloud.

"Right?" giggled Evelyn. "Oh gosh he's looking. Quick! Say something to me so it looks like we're just talking!"

But Evelyn wasn't being registered.

It was like a pull of gravity or a feeling of discovering a hidden gem on an adventure. Like it was meant to be, predestined that you made this discovery.
I suddenly felt dizzy.

He stopped walking as he saw me, not letting go of my eyes. His brows met, as did mine. 
He stood
I sat
We fell.

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