Am I A Bad Person? || Chanbaek One-Shot

Am I A Bad Person?

"Baek, will you please calm down? People are going to think you're having a seizure," came Junmyeon's voice but Baekhyun was too busy jumping and down, trying to spot his (favorite) hyung in the crowd of people scurrying in the airport, to pay attention to the exasperated, but equally as excited leader. He suddenly felt two strong hands gripping his shoulders, preventing him from moving. "BAEK! CALM! DOWN!" Chanyeol emphasized each word while looking into the smaller male's eyes. "I'm sorry Yeollie, but you just don't understand. I need to see Yixing hyung as soon as possible. It's important," pouted Baekhyun. Chanyeol just frowned, but let go of his boyfriend. He hated to admit it, but he agreed with Baek; He truly didn't understand why Baek was acting the way he was. Did he do something wrong? Oh God, was Baek mad at him? What if-  "OH MY GOD, I SEE HIM!" His thoughts were interrupted by his boyfriend sprinting at full speed towards a tall male coming towards their direction. Baekhyun didn't show any signs of slowing down as he got closer to Yixing. In fact, he seemed to be speeding up. Yixing's eyes widened as he quickly dropped his luggage and spread his arms, and just in time too, because not even a second later, he was carrying the full weight of his dongsaeng in his arms.
"Hyung! I missed you so much hyung! Please don't leave me again. Promise me you won't leave me again, hyung, please, just promise me!" Baekhyun rapidly spit the words out of his mouth, his voice cracking on multiple occasions. It took Yixing a few seconds to comprehend his words, but once he finally understood what Baek said, he immediately started rubbing his hands on Baekhyun's back in comforting circles. "Baek? Hey Baek, what's wrong? Baek, I've been gone for longer than this before and you've never acted this way. Please talk to me, my dongsaeng. How can hyung help you?" Yixing started to grow even more concerned when he saw the tears flowing down his precious dongsaeng's face. He didn't even realize the rest of the members had joined them in the middle of the airport. It seemed Baekhyun realized this too as he quickly tried to erase any signs of him crying and put on a wide smile, which everyone could spot was fake. Before anybody could say anything else, Baekhyun yelled "GROUP HUG" and pulled everybody in, ignoring the looks of concern he got when his voice cracked. Not wanting to ruin the happy mood of Yixing's return, nobody said anything and just piled in for the hug. They were all trying to be strong, but nobody could stop their eyes from watering, not even Kyungsoo, who was blinking furiously and pretending that a tear didn't just roll down his cheek. "Guys, don't you think all this lovey-dovey stuff would be better suited for the dorms? People are staring and y'all are embarrassing me," whined the maknae, as if he wasn't just crying a minute ago. "Aish, you disrespectful maknae! Fine, everybody, let's head out," Junmyeon said while rolling his eyes. Him and Sehun walked in front of the group with Jongin and Kyungsoo trailing a few steps behind, Kyungsoo blushing and smacking Jongin's arm for teasing him about crying. Minseok and Jongdae somehow caught up to the leader and maknae and were happily chatting away, while Chanyeol, Yixing, and Baekhyun brought up the rear of the group. Chanyeol was walking silently beside the other two, a slight pout on his face seeing his boyfriend clinging onto Yixing as if his life depended on it. Everybody could feel the thick tension during the car ride home. Chanyeol and Baekhyun, the two loudest in the group, were sitting silently next to each other, with the taller on his phone and his older staring out of the window blankly. As soon as they reach their home, Chanyeol quickly rushed out of the car and into their house, everybody's eyes following him worriedly, especially his boyfriend's. He quickly snapped out of it and started gathering the luggage, jokingly yelling at the rest of the members to stop standing there and do something for once.

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    Once everybody caught up and finished exchanging stories, it was well past 1:00 am, and they has a schedule early morning next day. Bidding goodnight, and after a few more hugs, ("You guys are so dramatic. We will literally be seeing each other in 4 hours" "Aish, you always know how to ruin the mood, don't you, you bratty maknae?") they each went to their respectful rooms: Chanyeol and Baekhyun, Kyungsoo and Jongin, Minseok and Jongdae, Sehun and Junmyeon, and Yixing into his single room. Yixing was almost asleep when he heard a soft knock on his door, followed by an equally soft voice. "Hyung? It's Baekhyun. Can I come in?" Yixing quickly rubbed the sleep from his eyes and told Baekhyun to enter. The younger boy meekly stepped inside and closed the door behind him, padding over to the taller male's bed and sitting down. Yixing had always thought that his dongsaeng was very cute, but looking at him now with his oversized shirt and red-black hair falling in his eyes, the boy looked like a vulnerable 5 year-old. "Baekhyun, will you please tell hyung what's wrong? Did something happen with Chanyeol while I was gone?" Baekhyun bit his lip and shook his head. Yixing grew even more concerned when Baekhyun looked up at him with tear-filled eyes. "H-hyung, can I ask you something?" Yixing just nodded. "Am I a bad person, hyung? Do you hate me?" came Baekhyun's voice, so soft that Yixing had to lean in just to hear what he said. Once he processed Baekhyun's words, his eyes grew comically and he just stared at the smaller male with his mouth slightly open in shock. Taking this as a yes, Baekhyun's face fell even more, if possible, and he let out a shaky laugh, hastily wiping the tears that were falling down his face at a rapid speed now. "I-it's okay, hyung. I u-understand. You don't have to s-say anything. I'm just going to go. Sorry for bothering you." He made an attempt to leave, but Yixing grabbed his arm and pulled him back down. He felt his stomach drop when he saw Baekhyun, the boy who was always smiling and making others laugh, trying to hold in his sobs with his eyes rimmed red and quivering lips. "Baek, listen to me. I could never hate you, and I don't know where you go that idea, but I want it gone from your head this instant. You are one of the sweetest guys I know, Hyunnie. You are the opposite of a bad person," Yixing said firmly, but softly. A sob escaped Baekhyun's mouth. "But hyung, why do the fans hate me so much, then? Should I have just let them take pictures of me instead of telling to stop? I wasn't trying to hurt anybody, I promise! I-I just wanted a little space, hyung, I swear! I haven't been getting enough sleep with comeback nearing and I-I" Baekhyun was unable to continue his sentence due to the violent sobs that were wracking his body. Yixing could do nothing but pull Baekhyun in for a hug and whispering soothing words into his ears. Ten minutes later, when his sobs were reduced to soft hiccups, Baekhyun opened his mouth to continue. "I thought I was being nice when I told them how I felt. I even said it was out of love, but I guess it came out harsher than I thought, because just seconds later, I was getting bombarded with hate comments. One of them even said I treated uri EX0-Ls as insects. Am I really that bad to our precious aeries hyung? I promise, hyung, I'm not trying to be mean, I really do promise! Hyung, did I do the wrong thing by disabling the comments section? I-There were just too many hate comments coming in, and I even got several death threats, and I-I just couldn't take it anymore. Some people even said that I did that so that I could hang out with T-Taeyeon. I don't even like her hyung! I'm gay for God's sake! I'm in a relationship with Chanyeol, and he's all that I could ask for, and I couldn't be happier, I swear, hyung! I'm just scared that he thinks that I still like her. I didn't even like her that much when we were dating so there is no possibility of me thinking of her like that. I see her as a good friend, a sister at most, but never as a lover. That's why I've been avoiding Yeol, hyung. I think he's going to hate me, just like everybody else does. But hyung, it didn't even stop there. Somehow people got my number and texted me on KakaoTalk, threatening me, and saying that I look ugly. I know I'm ugly, hyung, I know, but it still hurts, you know? I-I just don't know what to do anymore. Everybody hates me. Should I just leave EXO? It wouldn't make that much of a difference, right? I know you guys get tired of me when I can't stop talking or making jokes, even Yeollie, but I just want everybody to be happy, I swear! I don't know why I'm so stupid. God, stupid, stupid Baekhyun. You ruin everything!" Baekhyun suddenly yelled, hitting  himself in the head before completely breaking down. He was trying to be quiet but sobs escaped his body. He finally gave up trying to hold it in and just slumped against the taller male. Yixing could feel his heart shattering into pieces after hearing Baekhyun's story. Sure, he knew that Baekhyun got hate, heck they all did, but the smaller male always waved it off and continued laughing and smiling. Little did he know that behind the man with the infectious grin was a broken boy who was hanging on by a thread. Little did the either of them know that just outside the room was a certain giant crouching down with tears running down his face. Did his Baekkie really think he hates him? Never in a million years would he hate the love of his life, his soulmate, his other half. Chanyeol cleared his head and continued to listen to the conversation going on in the room.
    "Oh Baekhyun. Hyung is so sorry that he wasn't able to protect you from all this. Hyung is so bad." Baekhyun looked up with red rimmed eyes and opened his mouth to protest when Yixing continued talking. "Listen to me Hyunnie. You are not a terrible person, okay? You wanted privacy and if fans, if they can even call themselves that, can't understand that, then they are just stupid. I saw your comment and you couldn't have said it in a nicer way. I am so proud of you for handling this in a mature way, but Baekkie, why didn't you just tell manager hyung, or the members? As much as you think we hate you Baekkie, you couldn't be more wrong. Sehun may be the maknae, but the one everybody looks out for is you. We know you're sensitive Beak, and we can't help but want to protect you, even your dongsaengs. Now, about Chanyeol...Hyunnie, he loves you very much. He can't go a day without seeing or talking to you. That boy is head over heels in love with you, and if you can't see that, then I'm sorry, but you must be blind." Before he could continue, the door opened, causing the two on the bed to jump. In the blink of an eye, Chanyeol was at Baekhyun's side, hugging him him so hard that the smaller boy had trouble getting in oxygen. "BaekkieIamsosorryIdidn'trealizeyouweresosadandohgodI'msuchaterribleboyfriend," Chanyeol let out all in one breath. He pulled back to see the confused look on both his hyungs' faces and repeated what he said earlier. Baekhyun's eyes softened and he just hugged Chanyeol that told him everything. "Baby listen to me, and listen well okay? You are just perfect. You're my little angel without wings. Screw the people who think otherwise. I think you are gorgeous and Goddamn that hair! Don't even get me started on how perfect it looks on you. Believe me when I say that you are the most beautiful person that has graced this Earth, and I am the luckiest person in the world, no, in the entire universe, to call you mine. All of the members love you. Most importantly, I love you so much, my little angel, and don't you ever forget it. Next time if something is bothering you, just tell me baby. It's not good to hold it all in. I'm always here for you." Baekhyun, who had finally managed to stop crying, once again had tears rolling down his face, but this time, they were tears of happiness. He truly felt loved, and for once, believed that he was not alone. He had his members and this perfect, but dorky, giant by his side, and that's all he needs. He leaned in and places a gentle kiss on his boyfriend's lips, who happily returned it. Yixing just sat on the side quietly, but grinning. This is how everything is supposed to be. Baekhyun broke the kiss and stood, his hands intertwined with his boyfriend's, smiling sheepishly at his hyung. Before he could even say anything, Yixing just shook his head and told them both to go to bed and that they had less than 2 hours to sleep now. Chanyeol and Baekhyun thanked him before returning to their room. Chanyeol pulled Baekhyun towards his bed and they both laid down, with Baek's head under his giant's chin, their bodies fitting together like pieces of a puzzle. "I love you so much Yeollie," muttered Baekhyun, already drifting off to dreamland. Chanyeol kissed his forehead. "I love you too, my precious angel." They both fell asleep like that, the moonlight glowing on their faces etched with soft smiles.