Forever Yours (BWWM)(WMBW)

Chapter One

"Hey it's me Maeve I don't know if you remember me. I don't know if you use this number anymore but I thought what the hell let me give it try." Maeve pauses to Breathing hard for several seconds, " I don't even know where to begin with this message I want to say so many things but I have only thirty seconds." Taking a deep breath, "Zaya I need you.  Please come home. I have ovarian cancer, I'm dying. I can't fight this alone and I need my sister by my side. Please come home, I need you."

Pulling the phone from my ear. I place it on my lap. "I need you" keeps playing over and over in my mind. Maeve my sister from a different mister. My best friend. I had to go to her. I had to be with her. Without hesitation I grab my Mac and book the next plane back to the states. It leaves in three hours. I pack a small duffel, just the essentials. write a note for Marcus to see when he awakens in the morning. I took the easy way out and I knew that. I don't even bother to look around because I know I'm going to miss it. Miss the life I built for myself.

"Your weren't going to say goodbye were you?"
Marcus stated, he was standing in the bedroom doorway. 

I stopped where I was. I wanted to make this easy for me. For him. "You know I don't do goodbyes. I told you that when we met."

"After everything we been through, I deserve a goodbye at least Zay." He walks toward me. He grabs my hands and leans his forehead against mines.  Looks me deeply in my eyes, "I'm going to miss you."

Squeezing his hands, "I will miss you more."
We stand there, leaning against each other. Overtime this stance has become our intimate moment. It helped us both get through the traumas of our past.

He leans back while still holding my hands. Understanding finally shone in his eyes that, I had to go by myself. "Will we still be in contact?"

Looking into his hazel eyes. "I hope so."

We hug each other. I pull back to look into his hazel eyes and he looks into my brown eyes. I want to remember this moment forever. "I can never repay you for all did for me. You saved me Marcus. You pulled me from the brink and gave me life and for that I will forever be grateful. Thank you Marcus." I lean into to kiss him.

He kisses me back passionately, pulling apart "never say thank you. It was fate my Zay. Always fate."

I grab my duffel bag off the floor. I don't want to turn around, I can't bear to leave him but I know I must. Against better judgment I turn around. We both stare at each other. He winks to let me know he's going to be okay. I open the door and close it, leaning against it I take a deep breath and walk away.

It took two days to get back to the States. I'm freaking exhausted. I text my old friend Sean "I just landed. Can you come and get me?" Coming back home was a long drawn out process I wonder if this will foreshadow whats to come in my life. I go through customs still thinking about my old life. I don't know what to expect. When I emailed Sean asking for him to get me I was surprised he answered me.  My phone pings, "I'm here already."

Walking up to a black four door Infiniti. I get in, "Well Sean it looks like you did good for yourself", I say as I put my seat belt on.

"Wow Zaya. You look good for a person who disappeared for three and half years. Breaking my friends heart looks good on you." He states putting the car in drive.

I took a deep breath and didn't say anything to him. This is not going to happening like this.  Once we were out of the airport terminals. "Can you please pull over and get out of the car Sean."

"What? No, I'm driving. "

"Pull the damn car over now Sean." He looked at me for a few seconds but pulled the car off the highway.

I got out of the car. I knocked on the roof of the car to let him know he has to get out too.

Getting out for the car. "What do you want?"

"If you have something to say, say it now. Understand?"

He pinches the end of his nose. "It's none of my business."

"Oh really you didn't have a problem five minutes ago. Say what the hell you have to say Sean, if not shut the hell up!" I grab the door handle getting frustrated when it looked like he had nothing to say.

"Fine. Zaya you broke my friends heart. People go through shit Zaya but they just don't get up and leave. He was preparing to put his whole damn life on hold for you. His dreams. Everything he worked for. FOR YOU! For a selfish and ungrateful person like you. You didn't leave him. You left us all. You left me. You left your parents. You left your friends. We were all worried about you. Getting a yearly email indicating your alive means nothing because we didn't know if you were really alive or dead or how you were actually doing."

He stopped talking and we stared at each other. His eyes were red. I seen Sean cry once and that was the day his grandfather passed. So I know my leaving hurt him a lot. "Sean nothing will make up for me leaving. I wish I could tell you why I left but I don't owe you that explanation just yet. I am sorry but I had to get better." I say pointing to myself. "I was suffocating here. I was alone." He was going to interrupt me; "Let me finish Sean. I know what your going to say but I was surrounded by people yet I was alone. I was going through the worst thing imaginable and I can't even begin to tell you about it yet. Just know I left for me. My intention was not to hurt anyone. If I told you I was leaving, you would have stopped me. Sean I am sorry for any pain I have caused you."

He looks at me for a while before saying anything. Walking around the car. He comes in front of me, "I want to be mad and angry with you. While I don't agree with how you left. I do forgive you. You look really good Zaya, last time I saw you, you were not yourself." He pulls me into a hug and kisses the top of my head.

We hug each other for a long time. Getting in the car, "Do you think he will be as forgiving?"

Pulling off, "not one bit." He states.

"Right well it was worth the try." Changing subjects, I veer us towards safer subjects. "Have you spoke to her lately? Have you seen her?"

"I haven't in about two days. I go to the house regularly. She's not herself lately. Her spirit to fight is not there. I'm hoping you can help her through this." He pulls us in front of the hospital.

"Why are we here?"

"Well the attendant is going to take my car and park it. Then we are going up to see Maeve. She's here now for treatment. I know she would want to see you right away."

Taking my seatbelt off and opening the car door, "you told her didn't you?"

"Not in the sense of things. I told her you been in contact with me and that's it." He could never keep anything from her. He still loves her after all this time.

We walked into the hospital. I thought I would have time to before I faced the music. I don't even know what to expect. I researched ovarian cancer. I learned all I could on the flight over, but still didn't help me much because now I felt like I don't know shit. I don't know what to do.

We arrive on her floor. He leads me down the hallway to a door that's closed. Looking at him, "She is in there Zaya."

I stop and whisper, "Your not coming in with me."

Whispering back, "No this is a reunion between you two." He leaves down the hall after saying that.

I take a deep breath and opened the door.