Chapter One
Author's POV
28 March 2018
Dear Heart,
I know you’ve been down lately. I know you too well for you to deny it. You’ve been experiencing symptoms of depression and self-pity which is by the way, symptoms of a disease which we call acute loneliness. Lighten up. The world is harsher than you think it is. You don’t have to take things seriously but at the same time, you also can’t just take things for granted. You just have to learn the art of inner peace and balance. Peace within yourself.
Take time to experience the world beyond what you have right now. Appreciate those people whom you have taken for granted but love you nevertheless. Love more those who unconditionally love you. Take time and see how blue the sky is and feel how the wind touches your face. Take time to dance in the rain. Experience again how it feels to be kissed and then kiss back.
The best things are those small things which you don’t notice. Hurt will always be part of everything; love, friendship, family, strangers. You can never run away from it. You just have to learn from it. Accept it. Move on. And Let Go.
Love,
>Louise08
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“Finally! That’s it for this week. “ kinuha nito ang kanya eye glasses sabay higop ng kanyang kape.
“Ahhh…. This is what coffee should taste like. Way too better than Starbucks! This is my cup of coffee! “ Sigh….
“Hey!” Savoring your coffee eh?” sabay batok at tinabihan nito sa kanyang mesa.
“Stop it! Kasalan ko ba kung masarap ang timpla kong kape? Kung ayaw mo, eh d magtimpla ka ng kape mo!” Pabuntong hininga nito.
“Ok. I’m sorry Louise. D ko naman sinabi na pangit ang timpla mong kape eh. Pero d ko rin sasabihin na masarap siya. Ahahaha!”
“Hoy Sam, hindi porket malaki ang utang na loob ko sayo eh aalaskahin mo lng ako araw araw. Unfair ka ha!” sabay save at inupload ang sinulat xa kanyang weekly blog.
“End-week blog? Tungkol saan naman ba ito?” patanong ni Sam sabay higop ng kape.
“Basahin mo nlng! Tseh!” Sinara nito ang kanyang laptop sabay alis.
“Hoy Pikon! Paalis ka na nga at iiwan na kmi nagpapaka maldita ka parin jan sabay walk out queen! Tindi mo rin noh?” Sabay tawa at chineck nito ang blog ni Louise mobile phone niya.
ARA’s POV
2 teaspoon of Milo + 1 teaspoon coffee
Add 15ml full cream milk + 10ml hot water
Stir then add 3 marshmallows on top.
“Ganyan. Ganyan kasi Kim. Sa araw araw nating magkasama, hindi mo parin matama tama ang gusto kong timpla ng kape!” pabuntong hininga ko.
“Hoy Ara! Eh kung sana ikaw yung magtimpla ng kape mo eh d ka magrereklamo ng ganyan. Hindi namn po kasi ako si Mika!” sabi ni Kim sabay takip ng kanyang bibig.
Natahimik ako. Hindi ko alam bakit hanggang ngayon masakit parin. Hindi mawala wala ang iniwan nitong bakas sa puso ko. It’s been like. What? Five years and 3 months? Marami na nangyari. Marami na nagbago. Mero nang Sports Shop si Kim. Ang Kambal naman may Bar and Resto na at mag eexpand pa ng isa sa Boracay sometime this year. Nanganak na at nabinyagan na ang anak ni ate Aby. Nakailang bansa narin ang tinalo namin xa WVT Intl. League kasama ko sina ate Mich, Kim, Mela, Aby at Jessy. At ako, meron naring coffee shop at may iilang branches narin dito sa Pilipinas at South-east Asia. Nakailang girlfriend narin din ako pero ang sakit, ganun at ganun parin. Wlang pagbabago. Minsan lang pinapahinga ng sakit na nararamdaman ko. Kahit sa panaginip dinadalaw ako.
“Ara! Ara!” Sabay hampas ng balikat ko ni Kim.
“ Sorry Par. Di ko sinasadya. Eh kasi naman, hindi ko naman talaga kayang magtimpla ng timpla ni Mika eh. Sorry pinaalala ko pa.”
“Ok lng Par. Alam ko naman eh. Ako lng naman tong hindi maka pag move on. Hehehe…” Sabay open ng laptop at check ng mails at blogs.
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03 March 2018
One is never prepared for the loss of someone. It just gives you the feeling that everything must have turned upside down. Our world, as we knew it has changed and those changes require that we in turn should adjust to the new “normal”.
When you lose someone, he/she is no longer with you and when you lose an object or entity, you are unable to locate it. Death of a near and dear one is an irreplaceable loss. It will cause grief and extreme sadness. These are but normal reaction to a loss. It hurts --- well it has to. It will always be a part of the cycle of one’s life. But the most important thing is how you handle yourself after a great loss. And how you would be able to pick up the broken pieces that were left of you.
Fond memories that leave an indelible impression on our minds are difficult to let go. The loss of someone is as painful as letting go of the memories you had with them. To feel the pain is normal. Learn to embrace it. Acknowledge the pain and the loss because once you do, it would be easier for you to just let it go.
When the day is over, it once again proves that time waits for no one and life goes on and that everyday in life people separate for whatever reasons. Distance go from hours, days, weeks, until one day when reality hits you and sets in that they’re gone for good and hopefully leaving us with a positive and loving memory. Life goes on.
>Louise08
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“Luh! Anyare???” sabay bigay ng tissue ni Camil sa akin.
“Huh? Ah.. eh… sniff.. sniff… tong blogger kasi. Tagos sa puso pag sumulat. Tssssss!”
“Sino? Si Louise08? Hindi ka ba nagsasawa sa mga blogs niyan? Ginagawa mo na nga yang weekly routine mo eh! Hahaha!” Sabi ni Kim sabay tingin sa laptop ko. “ Oh? Ano yan? Magsusulat ka din ng blog mo? Hahahaha!”
“Tseh! Wala akong writing prowess nuh! Nagchecheck lng ako ng email. Baka may update na naman si coach eh. Malapit na naman ang year-end Intl. League di ba? Baka na post na ni coach yung sched natin.”
“Hay nako, outing tayo! Habang may oras pa bago bumalik ulit sa training! Eto oh! May promo ang Cebu Pac! CDO Baby!!!!!!” sabay turo ni Cienne sa screen ng laptop nito.
“game kami jan!!!” sabay sigaw nina Kim at Camil.
“Oh, Ara? Ikaw? Alangan namn magpapaiwan ka dba???” Kinuha nin Cienne ang credit card nito at handa ng mag pa book ng ticket to CDO.
“huh? Ah.. oo… I book mo din ako. May tinatapos pa ako ditto eh. Go lang”
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…. And so I guess I need to say goodbye. I know it will be hard leaving your memories behind. I still can’t believe I will be doing this to you but I don’t think my heart won’t stop loving you. I still hang on to this little chance of getting you back. Back into my arms. I still hang on to the thought of forever with you. Together, forever as we always say. I may be saying goodbye for now, but your memories will forever stay. I love you.
D1852
