Kim Namjoon X Reader Oneshots |SERIES|✔

Hopeless Feelings

I can relate to this story chingus.. But not that typical idea what this have.. Its just the Curiousity issues..

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I was wondering after this few weeks if namjoon could be still here and stay with me every Lunch because of his a few weeks of leave in our near cafe neighbor besides us.
He's working there since three or four months ago, i forgot the exact but never mind.
I totally miss him right now, and why? Because he's like a charming cute and handsome prince came to in reality from my dreams.
Haha thats too awkward ik but it seems really true for me,
When i first met him i thought it would be a hard time to take a chance of talking to him so privately but its the opposite of i thought instead he's the cool and cute personality that ive met all over my life and thats why i easily fall for him in just a few months of knowing him as my ideal type.
So... This time the only thing that i know was he take a leave for three weeks because he answered me he had just something to pay attention right now but no clues of that reason behind the scenes.
It killed me almost of not seeing him in a round of three weeks in work or even if at home which is the most place that we really hangout together and having some funs.
Sometimes i try to send messages for him but unluckily he always not replying some answers for me, and if he reply too..the only words that he'll just say is 'ok'.. 'Haha'.. 'Good'.. 'Busy sorry'.. 'Later'..
Ppfff.. Does he changed like that or whatever comes into my mind right now..
Im totally confused and does'nt know what to do.

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Im in front of his apartment building right now and thinking carefully of the next move that i will do in here that will not be epic or unfortunate in front of him when i do that thing.
*deep sigh*..*bit my lips*

Hwaiting!!!..

I first pointed the doorbell in front of his apartment door and luckily someone is coming to open the door and i ready my image for him.
Was it him???.. :)

But..
My heart stops racing so fast when..
Its not him..

"Uhm hi good afternoon.. Is Mr. Kim still living in this apartment sir? ",i asked respectfully to the man who's age was about in a round of 40s..
But the answer was no..
He didnt even told me that he moves now into another place?
Whats the matter of him?..
Ik i dont have the rights to say that to him but i cant help it to speak..
He's so insensitive!

I walked home with a heavy heart inside and i dont know why i felt like this ever in my life just for him.

.....Weeks and weeks passed..

Still theres none of a shadow of him that i want to appear right in front of me..
Im tired and maybe its time to forget him now because nothing will happen if i still wear happiness in disguise for the people who surrounds me.

I deleted our pictures in my gallery even though its hard to just delete all the memories of him from mine.
Like it was we broke up and i want to move on but never of us become like that dream of mine inside.
I had finally deleted, thrown, cleaned and and kept all the things that makes me remind of us together.
I had changed too the position of my things and furnitures inside my apartment to completely forget my history to him.
After a few brushes of dust in every items here ,I decided to take a rest first in my soft wide sofa and untied my hair because of the sticky feeling that i didnt want.

Before my eyes close, i realize that doorbell was pinch several times outside and i dont have any idea who is it.

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