The thing is. When someone says something to me. I either read it wrong and say something that I shouldn't and then I end up not being friends with someone. Or I say something and someone reads that wrong or misunderstands that. When im on video call to someone and they tell me something that is a secret or isn't funny I laugh. I don't mean to. Or I smile. Then people think im laughing at them on purpose, when sometimes it just comes out. I admit I laugh at things which are not funny and can affend some people if there secrets or personal things. But the thing that really annoys me is, I keep doing it and everytime I do it, I end up losing one of my bestfriends over something that I didn't mean to do , even though I did do it. Sometimes I feel like having a new me. A new life. A new personality. A new everything.
Now i'm in the situation where me and two of my bestfriends are not talking because I have been a insensitive little bitch who has said , " LOL ". To something that wasn't even funny. So looks like I might be having a whole new me.
