If Only You Knew

Chapter 4

Iysis (Pov)

So me and Tray been at the mall for a while now, I even got him to buy me some shoes. Ok I'm lying, I really don't ask him for anything at all unless its food.

He practically made me say yes to him buying them for me. He bought matching pair for us and some for his little brother.

I don't want him to feel like I'm using him for his money. Bestfriend got BANK! We work at the same place and I still don't understand how he has more then me and a bitch been saving up since I started working. We both work at footlocker and we get discount on shoes.

We are currently at the food court. "What you want. I got you." He ask me. "I got it bestfriend."

I walked to the American deli & I ordered me and Tray's food, as I was handing the girl the money to pay for it Tra'Varis took it out my hand put it in my back pocket and pulled out his black card.

"Tra'Varis, I was going to pay for it." yes I'm whining.

He never lets me pay for anything when we go out. I'm not like his gold digging girlfriend. I like being independent. But we're both stubborn and it just so happens that he's way more stubborn then I am so I never get my way.

"I know bestfriend, but when you out with me I got you." I sighed. "Thank you."

After we got our food we found a good spot to eat and I guess Tray notice I was more quiet than normal.

"I know you not still mad that I payed." I shook my head no, picking at my food. "Then whats wrong bestie." I sighed.

"I'm still thinking about the Mell thing. I don't really know what I'm gonna do. I mean I still love him but am I still IN love with him & is it worth getting hurt all over again."

Tray just sat and listened to me as I vent to him how I felt.

"I experienced plenty breakups but not like this one. Its different when you loved someone so much and they just hurt you to a point that it made you feel insecure about yourself. I mean what did I do wrong to make him cheat? Was it me? Am I not good enough for him? Am I Ugly. Was she better for him...Or was it because I didn't give him the cookie. Obviously if he got it from somewhere else. Ugh I just don't know." I sighed and put my face in my hands. I don't want him to see me cry.

Tra'Varis (Pov)

As I listened to her talk I was getting low key mad. I didn't know she felt like this. When she was done talking she sighed and hid her face. I knew what that meant. She was about to cry. I grab her hand and pulled her in my lap. When I got her hands from off her face I saw tears rolling down her face.

"Iysis I hate seeing you like this. Especially over a nigga. Fuck that nigga if he think he can just fuck you over and want to hop back your life. I don't wanna see you beating yourself up. Its not you, he just didn't realize what a good thing he had until it was gone. Your beautiful, funny, smart, crazy, don't take no shit, goofy, ghetto sometimes-" she laughed as I wipe her tears away. "but most of all you have a big heart and I love that about you. That's what I admire about you. That nigga was stupid to do what he did and cheat on you. I'm glad you didn't give your self to him because he doesn't deserve something so special. Keep saving yourself for someone who's worth saving it for & when you feel like they're the right one go for it. But don't let nobody break you down and make you feel like its your fault because its not. Ok?"

She nodded and hug me tight straddling my lap. "Thank you , I really needed to hear that." she whispered in my ear.  "I told you I got you." I gave her a peck on her cheek.

She got off my lap and returned to her position before. We ate and threw our stuff away and left.

When I got to her house we were just chilling, lying around watching movies. Ice was laying in between my legs with her head on my chest. When a sexual scene from the movie came on I tensed up.

I started visualizing me and Iysis doing things that I know would never happen. Whats going on with me. Ever since our little talk I've been feeling some type of way. Ways I've never even thought to feel about anyone, especially my bestfriend.

I guess she sensed it because she looked me in my face hard. I was trying to read her but I couldn't. She brought her face closer to mine and kissed me.

Me and Ice shared a few kisses before but nothing like this one. I propped myself on my elbows, getting into it, kissing her back. The feeling was new. It was nothing I felt before. It showed so much love, passion and want in it all at once. Damn she got me feeling like a bitch. I laughed mentally not trying to ruin this moment.

I think I love my bestfriend.

Iysis (Pov)

I kissed him. I finally kissed him. I don't know what came over me but I did it. It really made me feel alot better. It was filled with passion and want. Something else was definitely there. It felt like love. He kissed me like he loved me. None of Mells kisses can own up or compare to this one.

He got up on his elbows kissing me back holding my face in his hands. He flipped us over kissing me even harder then before dominating the kiss.

We released the kiss when we needed air and he placed kisses all over my neck. "mmmh." I moaned in his ear trying to stifle the sounds by biting down on my lip.

He came back up kissing my jaw, my cheeks, my nose, both eye lids, and the sides of my mouth. I whimpered at him teasing me. He chuckled and crushed his lips down on mine once again.

Then clothes started shedding. I couldn't even think straight. His lips trailed from mine to my neck, over my chest, and on top of my breast that I wish wasn't covered. He went further down to my navel and kissed me there. That kiss had me wild. I was so into it I didn't hear his phone ring. "Fuck." He sighed and answered it.

"Hello.... Yea.... Man right now-" he stopped and looked at me while I was trying to control my breath. " iight man I'm on my way." he hung up and fixed him self. I put my shirt back on trying to avoid his gaze.

"I'll see you tomorrow." I nodded and he bent down to kiss me again, turned around and left out the door.

Boy what did I just do !!!

Ayeee they finally got some kind if action.

Tray Loves Ice?

What about Jaserrae?

Should Iysis get back with Mell?

#TeamMell or TeamTray?

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