Wow. Look how far we've come. We're already at 5 months being a couple and it seems like our relationship keeps getting stronger. As best friends, as gaming buddies, and as lovers. It's incredible. And you always manages to make be fall in love with you every time I see you, every time I text you. My knee just keeps on getting scraped, so much that I think I should sponsor Band-Aid so I can get a lifetime supply of them. You're really special to me. In a way that I can't really explain, but I'll try my very best.
When I was with others, relationship wise, people asked me, "Do you see a future with 'X'?". Being put on the spot, I would say yes. But once they left, or dropped the subject, I'd stop and think, "Do I really see a future with 'X'?". Every time I would think that, it was usually no. I wouldn't see them and I growing old together. I wouldn't see them and I enjoying the night sky on the balcony, cuddling or writing as our dog cuddled with us or slept at our feet. I wouldn't see them and I, because I saw You and I. I would see a house of Fun and different types of forts around the house, a room for games and movies, and a pool in the back. I'd see long nights of cuddles, competitive gaming, in which you'd most likely win, writing under the stars under a warm blanket, or with some kind of warm beverage, with Dogmeat nearby, under the blanket with us or at our feet or better yet, across our laps like the giant puppy he'll be. I guess you can say that I wanted to be with you since the very beginning until the very end.
You're the most amazing boyfriend, in the sense that I feel like I can tell you anything and everything and you won't go around telling everyone. And I'm glad. I've had a lot of problems with that. Not with relationships, but friends. You're also very, VERY lovable. With your little semi chub cheeks, jaw dropping smile, the shine of your eyes with their interesting colour mix, your boopable nose, your little squishy belly, your BROAD SHOULDERS(Had to), your big arms, and your cute booty... You look so perfect. Don't even get me started on how comfy you are. It's outrageous. I could be looking down from a 20 story building, as there's a Thunder storm going on, but when I'm snuggling against you, yes, I'm still frightened, but I also feel myself calm, slowly but surely. Like the other night, with the big storm? Almost perfect example. I was petrified. I woke up to a REALLY loud thunder boom, which actually shook everything. I curled up into a tight ball, snuggled the shit out of our arm and tried to get as close as I could to you. Eventually, you woke up, right before another thunder boom and you snuggled back. The amount of safety and love I felt was overwhelming. I think I felt my heart leap out of my chest. Whether that was the thunder, my heart problems or the actual overwhelming feelings, I have no idea, but I don't care. I'm glad I was with you that night, instead of alone at home. I thank you for the comfort you've provided when disaster struck.
Now... It's true that there were some instances you got on my nerves. But I can't stay mad at you. It's physically impossible for me. There were some times where I didn't want to see you, but then after a lonely 2 minutes, I didn't want to leave your side. There was one time I actually wanted to smack you with full force and walk out, to the point where I didn't care if I didn't have all my things, just leave. But after processing that thought and the possible outcomes in my head, I quickly suppressed it with why I shouldn't and how it could very negatively affect us. I felt really bad for thinking that too, like, super guilty. I bet there are times where I get on your nerves too. Even if you say there isn't. Jesus, reading this over, I seem like an abusive bitch. I'm very sorry. Trust me, I will not hit you with the intent on hurting you. If I do, you may sit me down, kick me out, or BIG talk. Or hit me back, hopefully with the same amount of force I did, or I'll go flying. Either one you choose, it'll get my head screwed back on right and there will be a lot, and I mean A LOT, of apologies. I'll keep trying to make it up to you. I'm sorry for my future self, if I were to do something as stupid as that. It goes against a lot of my morals. I shall try to be more vocal about things, like you'd like. Even though I really don't want to hurt you.
To wrap everything up, I just want to say, thank you for staying this long. I have never done these "Happy Anniversary" things, and I honestly love it. It's like renewing vows. Only, we aren't waiting 10 years until we say how much more we love the other. But be warned, if this is only the 5th month love letter done the night before and the morning of, just imagine how adorable the wedding vows will be. But I fear I'll completely fuck it up, because when I'm with you, in your arms, looking into your eyes, or even holding your hand, I can't seem to find the right words. I stumble, talk too fast, I get all flustered. That's why I have to write everything. I can't get the words to go from my head to my vocal chords. BUT SOMEHOW, IT CAN FIND IT'S WAY TO MY FINGER TIPS... Anyways, my final words to you.
I love you with all my body, heart and soul to death. I love you more than anything in this cruel world and nothing can ever change that. I'd climb the highest mountains to hear your laugh, I'd swim across the sea, regardless of my lack of swimming skills, to see your smile. I'd fly across the cosmos, if you were at the other end. I'd travel to another dimension, to spend another day with you. I'd trade all the stars in the sky for you. I can't wait to be called your wifey and I can't wait to call you my hubby. My handsome hubby who has a little loving wifey by his side. Forever and ever and ever and always.
I love you more than you can ever imagine, Prince Charming.
-Your Enchanting Princess
