Storm clouds

Chapter 17- Confession

I groan as the sudden headache takes it's toll. Sunlight peeped through the slightly drawn red curtains. It felt like my head drummed its solo drum even louder as the light caught my eye.
Where was I? I look around to see Sebastian sleeping next to me, his strong arms draped over me. A single white piece of bedsheet clutched me. I pull it up slightly to see I was in nothing but just my underwear.

What the hell? My heart was literally in my mouth....no, it felt like it actually wanted to escape from this sinned body of mine.
Fear clutched my insides and my stomach took a sharp twist.

I threw his arms, that held me and pulling the bedsheet around me and fixing it, so that it stayed put. I ran to the washroom adjacent to the room.

I hurl everything I ate last night in the basin. My throat burned as I continued the disgusting course. My eyes watered as my legs wobbled.

Suddenly, strong cool arms pull my sweat matted hair behind as I puke again. I take deep breaths as I puke once more. Sebastian let the water run as he wiped away the sweat from my forehead and face.

He let his cool hands rest on my eyes and forehead, calming me down. I pushed him lightly away, ''You don't have to see this!'', I whispered incoherently as tears streamed down my face.

But to no avail, he remained and I wanted him here. I couldn't do this alone.

Finally, when I was able to breath and there was nothing left inside me to pour out, I rinse my mouth with cold water again and again, trying to clear away the foul taste of vomit.

When I was satisfied, I lean back onto Seb. He carries me gently before placing me in the bed. He kneels down so that he was eye level. He hugs me gently and he leans closer to my ears as my body trembled. ''I am so sorry!''

Sorry, wasn't there any better thing to say? Sorry didn't even cover it but I had no strength in me to fight him.

''Seb?'', I croak.

''Yes?'', Sebastian whispers in his morning voice while pulling my hair back and putting it behind my earlobe.

''What happened?'', my voice cracked as a fresh rush of tears washed down my warm cheeks.

''I don't really know?'', he whispers back, '' I really am sorry!''

''Sebastian!'', I exclaim alarmed. He quirks his eyebrow in tension.

''Did...did we use...protection?'' I gasp for air as my hands clutched his shoulder, my nails digging into his skin, unnoticed.

He didn't even wince only his eyebrow furrowed in focus, as if he was trying to remember something hazy because that's how exactly I felt- everything a big hazy blur.

'' I...guess so'', he says as if asking me.

My eyes widen in horror as he suddenly gets up. He walks to the tiny bin and looks into it before sighing a sigh of relief.

''Yes'', he confirms.

I sigh but still this is not how I pictured my first time. Half drunk and all. Wait, I didn't drink but only had a coke.

''Sebastian, was there something in the drink cuz I only had a coke!''

He eyes narrowed.

''It....it couldn't be....Jack, could it be?'', my voice shoke.

''No...that's impossible'', he whispered unsure himself.

''Remember'', I rubbed my temple vigorously again as the headache seemed to worsen when I tried to recall anything, ''He told you about something like I wouldn't be a maiden for long or something'', I say as he takes his previous place infront of me.

He looked so gorgeous as the hidden sunlight left his dark hair a lazy golden at the top and his eyes shone with sadness as if watching me in pain killed him from the inside.

'' He did....but I don't think he is that type of person, I know him for so long....he is like my guardian....he would never do anything like this.'' He says.

I didn't know him so I wasn't exactly convinced.

''What if someone else did this while tricking Jack?'', I ask.

''Maybe...it could explain why everything was normal up untill we drank our coke.''

I groan in frustration due to all the loop holes. It was like trying to solve a detective mystery and trust me when I say I suck at such stuffs.

I tug at Sebastian as I lean my forehead on his, ''Take me home!'', I whisper.

He closes his eyes as I do and we lay still like this for some time. He lifts his head up and kisses me tenderly as if apologising. His eyes held so much pain that it crushed me so that I couldn't breathe.

Tears well up again as I whisper, '' I love you''.

'' I love you too'', he says as his eyes shone with unshed tears.

It was the first time that we said something like this to each other and it filled me with warmth from the inside out.

''It was your first time, wasn't it?'', he asks slowly.

I nod unable to meet his eyes. What would he think of me, would he think I was an inexperienced virgin creep? Would he- my thoughts break its trail as a loud sound shakes me.

I look down to realize that he punched the bed board beside me. I take his hand immediately and cradle it in my tiny hands. His fist clenched tight as his knuckles swelled, he was going to have a bruise. My fingers trail them lightly as he shivers.

I look up to meet his eyes, ''Why?'', I say, nearly about to choke on my words.

He clenched his eyes shut as he takes deep breaths, '' I can't believe I ruined you like this. Your first time should have been amazing, a beautiful memory to remember!'', he speaks through his teeth, trying to control his anger.

''Sebastian'', I whisper as I cradle his face in my hands, '' I love you no matter what'', I sniff and clear my throat lowly as it got thick, ''Besides I am happy that it was you and not someone else!'', I whisper as I smile at him.

He looks at me as if I was crazy or maybe as if he was seeing me really for the first time.

''Your...your not.... angry....at me?'', he chokes out.

'' I was...but not at you, at myself'', I whisper back.

Suddenly his arms loop around me, '' I love you more than you can ever imagine!'', he whispers next to my ears as my body shivers lightly at his words.

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I was back in my bedroom. Sebastian drove me home and then he carried me upstairs, safely tucking me in bed and kissing me before he left through the window. I was tired beyond words as I fell into my deep slumber.

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I am back!!!

(What is this? Sam is back already, so quick?)

Yes my lovelies, I am back! (Shoots fist in the air)✊

So....how did this go? Who do you think did this....now that its clear that there was something in that drink? Was it Sebastian himself, trying to lure Emma into his manly traps or was it Jake? Or was it someone else.

Will devastation and heartbreak follow or will hatred and anger surface as Emma fights against her heart and mind?

Will she be like, ''The heart wants what it wants'' or ''Romance and reality are not the same'' ???

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