You've probably never had an ENTIRE school know your name because of every single roomer none were good I'd get beet up everyday because no one cared enough. it's why I can't sleep it's why I have anxiety because it haunts me at night it keeps me up it still feels like no one cares. no matter what the only person I know who cares was Paige. That last day of school those girls came to comfert Paige no even realising I was right there breaking so then go through that ALL your life
and tell me you don't want to change everything about yourself.
How can you enjoy life when there's no one who gives a damn about You?
I do crazy stuff just to be happy or seem happy it's normally fake and has become apart of my life.
Tell me my life is perfect because I learned to do a perfect fake smile. Force a laugh that sounds real.
Tell you I already ate when I'm starving.
Become such a great liar.
Tell me I'm thin when we both know I'm fat.
Roses are red
Violets are blue
The sugar bowl's sweet
And so are you
But now the roses are wilted
Violets are dead
The sugar bowl's empty
And my wrists are stained red...
Can you I'm a good actress? I'll act happy just for you, but you took my heart gave it a tight squeeze the drop it like it's worthless. My love for you was true. Anyone got a rope I can use? Teach me how to tie noose and help me hang it cause soon I'll be hanging from it.
Yeah, daydreamin about my death. Yeah, starin at my wrist and thinkin about cuttin.
Yeah, suicidal thoughts go through my head constently.
Someone come an' take this pain from me.
I can't help it wishin I was dead. No one will remember that I'm gone. No one will care if they see me bleedin. No one will care if they see me hangin.
I'll keep acting just for you. For the sake of everyone around. For the sake of the world I should die. I've lived to long in this pain. I fell to hard when I'm in shame. I'm in shame because of the girls at school. Always lookin perfect. Always so thin and beautiful. When ever I look in the mirror I think of a million people who look so much better.
Life's gettin darker. My hope is fadin that someone will come and help me. Gotta do this on my own. Gotta be alone. Wishin I looked like any and every other girl I see. Why can't people see what I see? I look at myself think of how to change. I look at myself and see so many flaws. I look at myself and hope I'll wake up and be like the other girls.
Me: Haha wanna hear a joke?
Person: Sure.
Me: I'm thin and beautiful.
Person: Hahahahahahaha
I wish I was anyone else, but not me. I wanna change who I see in the mirror.
I wanna change my personality.
I wanna change my weight.
I wanna change my face.
I wanna change my life.
I wanna change my body.
I wanna be like everyone else I see.
I'm ugly.
I'm fat.
I'm stupid.
I'm a slut.
I'm a whore.
I'm worthless.
I'm depressed.
And you don't see that because I'm acting.
I'm tired of acting.
I wanna die.
I'm full of flaws and imperfections.
For anyone that's reading this, I'm sorry.
