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Attention Whore

This will probably be the longest rant I'll make because It's just so important to me.

So, somehow, I make friends with attention whores, I don't know why, it just sort of happens. Let me explain, *Storytime*

Alright, so I have this 'friend', let's call her Jane. I have this small group of friends that consist of four people (Jane and I included). I just realized Jane has Wattpad and if she sees this she knows Jane is her, I'm going to have to block her lmao. Two of the four are kind of *cough* attention whores *cough* Here's why:

So, one of the girls, let's call her Cecily, is kind of an emo...which is totally okay, I'm just kind of labeling her so you have an idea of her appearance. When Jane and I were best friends, Jane decided to tell me that Cecily cuts herself. WOW OKAY I BARELY KNEW WHO CECILY WAS AND ITS JUST FUCKING RUDE TO TELL SOMEONE THAT SOMEONE ELSE CUTS THEMSELVES LIKE WHAT THE FUCK?!?! But anyway, amongst that, I concluded that Cecily did indeed cut her wrist, multiple times, I wanted to reach out to Cecily, to help her but I was kind of too scared. So, skip 5 months ahead, Cecily and I are really good friends but here's the thing, during those 5 months Cecily became more confident WHICH IS REALLY GOOD AND I'M PROUD OF HER but she's became more.... depressed (?) I don't know if that's the word for it.

(Cutting t.w.)

In our fucked-up school, cutting is a trend. All the popular people grab teacher's thumb tacks and slide it across their wrist and they think it's cool and shit. Cecily is popular, very popular, her crush was really sad one day and Cecily no joke tried starving herself for almost two weeks and even cut herself. That's a problem but that's not THE problem, the problem is every time she cuts herself she goes to random people that don't give a shit about her and shows them her bloody wrist and says "Haha kms" I'VE SEEN HER DO THIS SO MANY DAMN TIMES. Even in class she wear about 16 bracelets and when someone compliments her on one of them she gets really quite and says something along the lines of, "Thank you...they hide things." Alright people in my school are dumb, but not that fucking dumb, they know you're cutting yourself. To make matters worse she was so against telling me about her cutting, the only way I knew was because Jane was leaking information to me about Cecily's problem. I told Jane that that was not right but on the other hand I was grateful because I actually tried helping Cecily after Jane told me all of that. The thing is she was so quick to tell random people of her cutting but not her friends. I don't know, maybe she had a reason for not telling me, after a week or two Cecily had enough confidence to tell me (even though I already knew)

Alright so Cecily isn't so bad, Jane is much worse.

Jane is your typical pretty, wealthy, spoiled cunt. I don't consider Jane a friend, she's an honest to god a bitch but I'm not going to get into that.

One day in particular (may I add that Jane is super skinny, I don't throw around the word skinny loosely) Cecily and I have this game we play that goes like one of us say a random word and the other person says a word that rhymes and yeah it goes back and forth, we did it on text. So, one day the word was mat, and I said cat, and she said bat so after a while we got bored and stopped. Jane says a bunch of other words that rhyme with mat, including some that Cecily and I already came up with, Jane then says the word fat. Instead of moving to another word she goes on to say, "Fat...like me" and so I fall for that shit and is like, "aw no Jane you're not fat, you're really skinny." I meant it. I just really wish I didn't say it because now every time we play that game she says a typically insulting word and relates it to her, ex:

Word: active

What jane says: "Unattractive...like me"

Word: Yak

What jane says: ballsack...like me

WOWOW AND THEN SHE GETS PISSED WHEN PEOPLE DON'T CONTRIDICT HER AND SAY, "what no you're beautiful." If you constantly depend on others to say how you attractive you are, that's a problem. Anyway, I don't really think she even thinks she's ugly, I just think she knows she's pretty and wants to push her looks in other people's faces.

Jane took a photo of her eyes, which are sparkly blue (who the hell doesn't like blue eyes?!) and then send it to the group and says, "ew my gross eyes." You're fucking kidding, right? Let's review, you get compliments on your eyes all the time, you know they're good because if you didn't you wouldn't (1.) take a picture of them and (2.) send it to people. So, the only sane one in the group (the one I really really really like) let's call her Kat says, "Nah you're eyes are nice." And then Jane is like, "What no?! They're ugly and gross." And then Kat loses interest and says, "welp okay." Jane probably got pissed.

I just want to finish this cause I'm sort of lazy. Well, another point I want to get to is that Jane says she hates herself and all the crap (and maybe she does) but I mean if you hated how you looked, hated your body and hair and legs and arms, you wouldn't be posting full body pictures of yourself on Instagram with heart emojis in the captions @ jane.

Alright that's it, sorry if this has a lot of typos and crap, I couldn't read through because its 1:11 AM right now and I have to sleep. Sorry if this is also offensive, I just had to...plus I can't really be considerate when I'm sleep deprived.

Alright bye bye babes

I just realized that this isn't really long but eh whatever.