Learning To Feel Again

Chapter 14

I wake up in the best mood I've ever been in. I look to my right and stare out Asher's handsome face. He looks so peaceful in his sleep. I lean over and lightly kiss his head and then stand up. He stirs a little but stays asleep. I tip toe to my bathroom and close the door. 

I turn the water on and hop in. I think about the night before and the way Asher's hands had roamed my body. And the way his dick felt inside of me; it made my legs tingle. I finish washing my body and get out of the shower. I wrap myself in a towel and walk back into my room. 

When I get in there I notice that Asher is no longer is my bed. "Ash-" I jump as the towel is ripped away from me and I'm dragged into a large body. 

"Good morning Alex. You look as good as you did last night" Asher said as his eyes roamed my body. 

"Quit it. My dad is here" I say pulling away from him and grabbing my towel again. 

"I know. Makes it all the more fun" he says as he slaps my butt a little. I let out a yelp and glare at him. 

"You're lucky I love you mister" I shake my head at him. "Now out" I point to the door. 

"Yeah. Yeah. I'm going. Only because I have to work. But when I get home you are mine" he smirks and closes my door. 

I smile to myself and get a weird feeling in my stomach from the giddiness. He is truly something. 

I throw on a pair of sweatpants and a tank top. I put my hair in a messy bun and head downstairs. I walk into the kitchen just as Asher was. "You clean up nice" I smirk at his suite and groomed hair. 

"Well I dress to impress but could you say the same?" he raises an eyebrow.

I flip him off and grab a bowl for my cereal. I had dad put some on the bottom shelf! 

"You know I'm just getting love" he wraps his muscly arms around my waste. He inhales and I can tell he is smiling. "Pineapple, huh?" 

"Mhm" I hum triumphant that I knew his favorite scent. I mean he did tell me, but still. 

"Break up the love scene my god" my dad groans as he walks into the kitchen. 

Asher and I break away but not without laughing. "I was coming to get you, Asher. It's time to go" my dad says as he grabs his keys. 

"Yes sir. I'll be right there" he says as my dad walks out of the kitchen.

"Love you" he shouts back to me as he goes. 

"I'll see you later Alex. Love you" he gives me one last love filled kiss and leaves. 

I grab my cereal and eat quickly so I can lounge around all day before I go meet Lucas and Haley. 

I'm sitting on the couch when Ethan makes his presence known. "Hello Alex" he says ruthlessly. 

"What do you want?" 

"You" he makes his way over to me. I get up and back away from him. 

"Ethan I told you to leave me the fuck alone!" I shout at him. 

"And I told you you were mine!" he steps closer to me. "That doesn't mean you can go and fuck my brother. He's gonna get punished for that" he shakes his head with a cringe-worthy laugh. 

"Don't you dare touch, Asher. You hear me? I will kill you Ethan!" I growl out aggressively. I must have said the wrong thing because his eyes literally turned black and started towards me. I turn and try to run, but I don't make it far because he jumps on me. 

My body slams into the ground as his weight holds me down. "Now Now. Don't fight our love Alex. It only hurts you"

He turns my body around so we are face to face. "I'm gonna show you just how much I love you and who the fuck you belong to" he traces my shirt before ripping it off my body. 

I try to kick him off of me, but it is no use. I'm too weak. I try to bite his hand but it's where I can't get a good grip. All I can do is rock my body and try to get him off of me. He takes his ashy hand and squeezes one of my breasts painfully. I let out a few tears as I realize what he is about to do. He's going to do what he did to me last time. 

He slowly traces his hand down my stomach and stops as he gets to the waistband of my sweats. He digs his hand in and inserts a finger into me. "God I love you Alex" was the last thing I heard before I passed out. 

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I wake up with a pain in my lower region. I look down and see my body is fully unclothed. I suddenly remember what just happened. Ethan raped me. He raped me again. All because I fell for his brother. I can't believe I was so stupid. 

I slowly bring myself up and limp to my room. I walk in and notice a note on my bed. 

Thanks for the fun Alex. I had to run out real quick, but I'll be back soon. And don't think you can tell anyone this time. I will find out and you will be hurt. Even if I have to hurt Asher in the process. XOXO Ethan. 

The tears start to pour out of my eyes. Why me? Why me? I don't understand why I can't just be happy. He needs to get out of my life. I need to tell someone, but I can't risk Asher's life. I love him too much for that. 

I walk into my bathroom and take a steaming hot shower to wash Ethan off of me. I feel so violated. I hate myself for being so afraid of him. And I hate the power he has over me. I was doing well and then he had to go and rape me again. I can never get away. This is what I get for being a pussy. "Damn!" I scream as I punch my shower wall and cut my knuckles. The blood drips down and I know it is time to get out of the shower. I wrap a towell around myself and one on my hand. 

I quickly get dressed and lock my door. I lay in my bed and fall asleep. Hopefully I'll wake up with a solution. Or a way to forget all of this.