Every time I tell people that I'm bi and they don't belive me I say well then ask Clair book becuz I love her and she knows that so yeah plz go fuck off.
Today we where watching movies in class cuz it was the last day before Christmas break so we pushed all the desks into a corner and I found my self in the most far away cornor and then I found mysf cryin I didn't know why but I think was the fact that I hadn't talked to u in a weeks or that my life wis incomplete without u or the fact that I love u but u don't give two bricks about me
to be honest I have been like this the hole time yes there where times I wanted to rip ur head off becouse u made me mad for some stupid reason like u said u called but never did and didn't even bother to say sorry or ignolog the fact that I'm here waiting for u even just to text me and say hey but when you do that then just leave me hanging I fin my self worndering why u didn't text back makin up stories like u don't care or that u u for got or something like that and I'm not blaming it all on u I'm blaming myself becuz I thought that I was being to annoying or that I was just some crazy person that's in love with you.
I miss you all the time u have no idea. But I don't know if I should keep trying considering the fact that I try to talk to you try to be there when you're down but I can't be there if you won't even give me that time of day. But the part that real sucks is the part where I dont know if I should keep trying and get hurt or just stop all together and not be able to stop thinking about you.
I love everything about u even the bad parts about you because you is all I care about. You know that I love u with every inch if my body but u can't see that even though it's standing right in front of you or my love for u is like a newly washed window you can look through but barely notice it.
Right when we start talking again and everything is going good we find some thing to screw it up then we don't talk for days and weeks at a time & it makes me crazy. If you came up to me any day and time no matter the conditions we are in if u asked me if u still loved u I would say yeas I will always love u through thick and thin. BB u r by far the best thing that has ever happend to me.
STOP killing me from the inside out cuz it's really pissing me off but u don't see that all u see is my wat u think stupid messages from me.
U know I'm don't I'm done with all this shit that u an I both bring it's not healthy. But truth is is that I don't know if I should keep trying so u know wat I'm not goin to anymore okay so now u don't have to worry about even though u didn't all ready.
Oh look it's been one month but to be honest it felt good not having to worry if u where going to respond becuz I have up on even trying to be there for u.
So today I unblocked u but didn't freind you and I relized that it took a lot less more time than I thought to get over u yeah sure I still like you cuz u where honestly my first love So maybe one day I'll send u this mabe after four months of not talking to you will be enough.
Um 3-28-14 decided to text u no text back thanx new I would've regreted that. Wow.
13 more days till 2 months can't wait but I don't know if I should restart cuz I texted u so yeah it feels good not to talk to u but I still wonder if u ever wonder about me but u most likely don't right. ?
Oh yeah 9 more days and it will be 2 months since I last texted you but I feel happier but at the same time I also feel empty but I think u should t care anymore cuzz what's the point of carrying if u don't either right. So yeah I might not have a best freind at the moment and wow that's funny as in writing this I'm also listening to music and the song is daylight by Maroon 5.
Two months today last night I was rereading our text messages. Soo it's felt good not to talk to you but that doesn't mean I do t think about you everyday. Yeah sure I don't talk about you all the time I still think about how ur doing and what we could be talking about but realistically I think I would be telling you how beautiful you look even though I can't see u becouse just talking to you changes me in to a whole new person.
No you do t just get to text me out if the blue after two months asking me why I deleted you :(. The only reason I did was becuz I didn't feel like being hurt again waiting for you text or yoire response becuz every time you do that it kills me.
Clair: why did you delet me :(
Me: I deleted you two months ago blocked you for the first month so plz don't text me again thanks
Clair: sorry..
Me: no you arnt
Clair: yes I am I just wanted to talk to you I don't know why we can't talk
Me: I never said we couldn't talk I just don't feel like it
Clair: you told me not to text you again
Me: yes becuz I do t want to talk so why are you still texting me ???
