A Love Letter I Never Planned To Post

Dear Juliet,

//This is very late, I'm so sorry. You know me, I keep passing out whenever I should've been writing this. But I'm still doing it. Happy eight months, you absolute dork.

We swore we'd never make it. Months upon months of having this unexplained ship.

I call it a ship not as a slang for imagining two people in a relationship, but as an indescribable connection, somewhere lost in-between what somewhat closely resembled a relationship, a hushed ordeal that was the result of a friendship gone just a little too right.

It wasn't right. What we were doing. We hid from everyone, we shared the sweetest words meant only for lovers, words that left both of us confused and flustered. We thought back then that we were only meant to be friends, a relationship that held dreams but zero real potential. It was a little unhealthy. It was risky.

It wasn't right.

You helped me learn that sometimes if it wasn't right, that left was still just as much an option.

Left is so much prettier in my opinion.

I live each day much happier than I did months ago. I get to live it with the girl that I never thought I could get. The girl that always seemed so perfect, that it was a mere dream that me of all people would get her.

I find that living with my dreams as my reality makes me happiest.

We have rough patches. There are times I struggle through, and times that you do as well. But it's so much easier to deal with than eight months prior. Because now, every time I begin to struggle, I try to think of you. Think of how important I felt when you held me, how my heart speeds up every time you compliment me.

That helps me through. Because I realize in that moment how just lucky I am.

And I realize that with you, everything will be okay.

There are times when I lay in bed, late at night, and I stare up at the ceiling. My mind drifts from subject to subject, but always manages to settle on a common idea. You. My cheeks never fail to darken, thanks to you. When you're on my mind, I can't help but feel a sense of joy. The feeling that flushes throughout me,  warming me up from the tips of my toes to the top of my head. It's my favourite comfort, a safety blanket that wraps around me and holds me in the times when your arms can't.

I don't think you realize how much you mean to me. You're my everything. You're such a big reason to why I wake up every day, try my hardest when I feel like doing anything but that.

Every time I feel like giving in, my mind never fails to once more drift back to you, to how you look standing right in front of me, how your eyes sparkle in the sun. It gives me that little bit of strength I need to keep going, imagining that I'll get to see that again, and that one day that view will be the first thing I see early in the morning to the last thing I see late into the evening.

I can't wait for those times.

For so long, I've dreamed of a fairy tale life. It's a childhood dream of so many, to be swept off their feet by their very own prince in shining armor. Stories whispered in hushed voices to us in the dead of the night as children, filling our mind with these tales of frogs turned to men and shoes made of glass. As we grew older, life became a cruel reminder that these tales shall only ever remain tales, fantasy and nothing more. For all my life, I believed this to be true.

But then I met you.

You showed me that these fairy tales had more fact then I ever realized there to be. You didn't show me those castles and carriages that I had originally expected. You showed me something so much greater. You showed me how real true loves kiss could be. How soul mates weren't just a myth.

You were my happy end to a story that you created around me. Our own little fairy tale world that I grew to adore just as I grew to adore you.

You were, and to this day, are my best friend. My secret keeper. My rusty doorknob. My love. I want it to stay just like this.

We've come so far, Juls. From the secret 'I Love You's to the fairy tale world of today. We made it.

We've done eight months together.

Here's to so much longer in this crazy, fairy tale love story.