My last Hope: depressed/abused erenxlevi attack on titan fanficion

Fluffy White Cat

  Hi! I'm the author and I decided to edit this. It has been years since I first wrote this so I hope I can make it better now that I'm not in 7th grade. I'm a junior in high school taking college classes. Anyway, I hope you enjoy it :).

WARNING: MENTAL HEALTH ISSUES, SELF HARM

Eren's POV

            Today should have been like any other day. my alarm was set for 5:30 am but it must not of gone off. I didn't wake up till 7 am. This caused me to rush out of bed and into my shower quickly washing up and jumping out to brush my teeth and comb my hair.

             The school has been stressful lately and honestly I don't want to go but if I have any future, I, unfortunately, must go. As soon as I got all my personal hygiene done I quickly ran into my closet and grabbed the first two items I saw. It was a band t-shirt and some normal ripped jeans. I ran toward the door and put on my checkered vans and a jean jacket.

               Deciding to finally leave I opened the door and started walking toward the hell hole I call high school. While walking toward the school I smell the sweet smell of coffee and fresh baked goods. Looking at my watch I saw that I was already half an hour late to the first period and it was worth it to stop for some iced coffee and a scone.

            Walking into the familiar little shop just gives me the best feeling. seeing the people sitting at tables on their computers drinking warm cups of coffee and hearing the distinct sound of coffee pouring into the iconic white and navy mugs the shop owns always gives me memories. My mom would pick me up for school early on Mondays when I was in electuary school. On Mondays, she got off work two hours early so she would come to my school, pick me up and we would walk down to this little shop. Those were the good times.

                   After my moment of nostalgia, I walked up to the cashier and order a large iced coffee with vanilla and Carmel and a berry scone. as I was waiting for my items, I saw a small white kitten just casually strolled up to me. A raven-haired man came in running in after this kitten. This man sounded out of breath but managed to say " Have you seen a white kitten about this big" he held up his hands in a small gesture. " She is kind of an asshole." I giggled because the kitten he was talking about has currently trying to jump on the counter to get my freshly made coffee and a scone. I grabbed my stuff and looked at the man and said " Is the white fluffy thing yours". He looked at the small animal with relief and annoyance. he sighed and said, " unfortunately..... yes". He picked up the kitten and started to walk out and I caught up to him. " Hi, my name is Eren by the way". The guy looked up and said " Oh, hi I'm Levi. I'm sorry about snowball she is just a little annoying.". I replied, " Nah it's okay I love cats". He had a slight laugh " yeah me too, anyway I'm really late for school and I got to bring my cat home. Bye." I started toward the school again there was only about a 5-minute walk from the cafe. Looking at the time I should get there around the beginning of the second period.

                  As I got to the school, I saw that class change was happening which is unfortunate for me because I'm not the coolest kid in the school. Keeping my head down I walked down the hall toward my class when I hear " hey suicide". There he was my old friend and now bully jean. I quicken my pace down the hall wanting to get away as fast as I could. " Hey get your sorry ass back here," Jean said as he grabbed my shoulder and pushed me to the ground. " What are you going to do cry about it awe how sad. Anyway, I want you to meet me and my friends at the oak park later tonight. Be there or I will ruin you."

                  Startled I get up and get to my class. I walk into Mr. Smith's class and sit down at my regular seat next to my best and only friend Armin. Math, God, I hate it but it is the only class I have with Armin and that is what makes it even slightly barrable. Armin pulled out a paper with a bunch of writing on it. Shit. That means there was homework and I didn't do it. "Hey, Armin" I whispered. "By any chance can I copy your homework". Seemingly annoyed he replied by sliding his paper to me and I quickly copied and got it turned in on time.

TIME SKIP

                  The school was long and boring but I finally got through the day but what came after was not any better. After my mom passed away, I was left with my dad and at first, it wasn't bad. A month after she died my dad got into some unbelievably bad drinking habits and started to yell and then throw and now hit. I try not to upset him the best I can by always having the house clean and never being around him. I always come home from school and clean just before he gets home and today was no different. I walked home from school as usual and grabbed the mop and got to work.

                     I finished cleaning the house in about an hour and I had 25 minutes till my dad got home. It was hot outside and cleaning for a long time caused me to get super sweaty so I decided to get a shower. I just jumped into the shower rinsed my sweat off and put new clothes on. By the time I got done, it was 10 minutes till h I had to leave. I remembered that jean told me to meet him, I don't know why I trusted him I guess it is because we used to be friends.

                         Even with all the issues, I have had to deal with I have never been one to self-harm because I know my mom would never want that for me. She was a beautiful and amazing person with long brunet hair she always wore in a side braid and almost golden like brown eyes. I really miss her eyes. when she would bake be fresh chocolate chip cookies and pour me a large glass of strawberry milk, I always was so happy. Not anymore, She's gone and so is my happiness, I guess. Lately, I have wanted to hurt myself so bad just to get rid of the pain but I haven't just for my mom. When I feel this way, I take melatonin to fall asleep and just forget about it wall but I have somewhere to be so I can't do that.

                      Jean wanted to meet me at the park down the road in about 15 minutes. I had time to walk to the nearby Dollar Tree so I can pick up a few things I know me and my sister need. I have a sister named Mikasa she is my rock. She helps me through all of the issues I have most of the time. She has always been a daddy's girl though; I was close to my mom but Mikasa was not so after mom's death it didn't hit her as hard. Dad still loves Mikasa more and would never lay a hand on her but he sure will hit me without hesitation. Anyway, at the dollar tree, I needed toothpaste and Mika needed some hair ties. While I was in the aisle for the toothpaste and I see a familiar raven-haired man looking at the toothbrush with a lot of focus. "Hi, you are the kitten guy" Levi replied " Ah yes and you are the strawberry scone guy" I giggled " yeah and it was so good". Levi slightly smiled" well it was nice to see you again I hope to see you in the future," he said as he walked toward the cashier with his chosen toothbrush.

            After I got my stuff and checked out, I started towards the park where I will meet jean. Was this the best decision, no, am I going anyway, stupidly yes. He might just want to apologize for the year and years of the emotional trauma he has created. Maybe not only time can tell. 

Hi :) thank you for finishing the chapter I hope you liked it.-Author <3

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