Shattered

I love you.

I always have, and I always will.

You are my first love.

The first girl I ever truly loved.

The first one I let inside my heart.

Looking back, we aren't exactly the perfect couple.

We are two very different people; exact opposites of each other.

But we did have something in common – we were very much in love with one another.

Even with our differences, we made it work and filled each other's gap.

So then, tell me, how did we end up like this?

What caused this never ending chaos between us?

Why did you change?

When did this all happen?

Where was the burning passion in your eyes, smile and words?

Who are you? 

What have you become?

Say something, I'm giving up on you.

How could I have saved you if you didn't want to?

Why did you let them take over you?

You let your demons control you.

You let the darkness consume you.

The love I gave you, was it not enough?

The efforts, the pain I went through, the tears I've shed for you...

Was it not enough?

Am I not enough anymore?

It hurts.

It hurts because I poured everything I had into you, but you were still empty.

Say something, I'm giving up on you.

I love you.

I always have, and I always will.

For every step I take towards you, you take five steps back.

Every moment I try to reach you, you only end up getting farther away.

I fear that if this goes on, I'll someday be as broken as you or worse.

How am I going to fix you if I get broken, too?

You're the one that I love.

And I'm saying goodbye.

I love you.

I always have, and I always will.

But I can't keep fooling myself.

I can't keep holding on to something you're barely holding on to.

I love you.

I always have, and I always will.

But I am scared of being as broken as you.

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Can you hear that?

Can you hear the sound of tears and my breaking heart?

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"When things break, it's not the actual breaking that prevents them from getting back together again. It's because a little piece gets lost -- the two remaining ends couldn't fit together even if they wanted to. The whole shape has changed." - David Levithan