Unforgettable Woman || Kim Seokjin √

Chapter 28 - Why?

»Your POV«

"Are you okay?"

I didn't realize that I was still with Shawn.

We were in the mall because I asked him if he could go with me when I buy some makeup.

"Yeah I'm fine."

I kept on thinking about the Carbonara that I gave Jin.

I kept asking myself whether he liked it or not.

I haven't seen Yoonie this morning so I wasnt able to ask her.

I really hope that it made him feel a little better.

"You look like you're in deep thought. What are you thinking about?"

I was holding Shawn's hand while we were making our way to the parking lot since I was done buying what I needed.

"Oh I was just thinking about our performances coming up."

I gave him a faint smile cause I didn't want him to know I was lying.

The thought of Jin was killing me.

I was worried when Yasmin told me that he's been lying in bed almost all the time.

"Do you want to head somewhere?"

We were already at the car and Shawn opened the door for me.

"I think I need to head to the dorm cause we have practice."

This time I wasn't lying.

We really have practice later.

It would be awkward since our producer would be there.

He talked to me about Jin and my relationship and I told him that I didn't want to be caught up with it since I already had a boyfriend.

I was really happy when he was okay with it.

"Okay next destination the dorm."

Shawn turned the car engine in and we were off.

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I was finally in the dorm and I made my way to the room and I was happy to see Yoonie.

"Oh Yoonie."

Yoonie was cleaning up her bed when I entered the room.

"Oh hello eunnie."

She looked at me and I smiled at her.

"Uhm... So did Jin recieve the carbonara I sent him?"

I sat on my bed.

"Yes he did."

My mind instantly became clouded with emotions.

I was worried and happy at the same time.

"So.... what... did he say about it?"

Yoonie was silent for a bit before she finally answered.

"Oh... He actually didn't want to eat it."

My expression suddenly became dark.

"What?"

I was so confused as to why he didn't want to eat it.

The time I cooked it for him he seemed really happy about it.

I made sure that I got everything right.

Was there something wrong with how o cooked it today? Did it rot?

"Well I told him you made it and when he heard that he suddenly pushed the food away."

What?

He pushed it away because he knew I cooked it?

I didn't understand as to why he is acting this way.

He was so kind and sweet but it seems like he isn't the Jin I used to know.

"I had to force him to eat it and said that he should at least do that to show you respect. He ate a little but then he said that he couldn't stand the taste and he threw it out."

Hearing what Yoonie said made my mind run wild.

He doesn't like it?

He loved my carbonara.

I fell back on my bed making me lie down.

I felt so confused.

"I'm sorry eunnie but I have to get going."

"Sure. Bye"

She went out and I was left here.

Thinking about what Jin said hurt me.

He never seemed like that kind of person to me.

Then I thought about Yoonie and where she could've gone moments before our practice.

Then I realized she was going to Jin.

The thought of it was keeping me awake.

I tried so hard to stop thinking about him.

I honestly tried my best to move on and actually fall for Shawn again but it failed.
I hate myself for it.

It hurts everytime I see Yoonie because it makes me think about what me and Jin could've been.

I waste everynight crying.

I never knew things would hurt this bad.

Why did I have to fall for him?

Why did he have to break my heart?

The worst part is...

Why was his new girlfriend my roommate?

Seeing Yoonie day by day made me think about what she was that I wasn't.

It made me feel insecure.

I want to stop.

I want to end this.

There is only one way to do it.

But it would change everything.

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A/N

What is the way to end it?

What is the way to make the pain go away?

All will be revieled soon.

Anyway thank you so much for the love y'all have shown me.

I'm honestly so thankful to each of you.

I love you all so much