Sophie's feelings towards her best friend, Gabriel, she protects like it's her dearest treasure, in fear of someone finding them. In fear of him finding out. So she grabs her pen and writes her loveletters which he will never receive.
Dear Gabe I told myself to wait some days before I write another letter, but I have nothing else to do then to vent all my feelings out on this piece of paper. I feel like I have some kind of mental problem, I mean, why am I even writing these? You will never even read them. At least not as long as I'm alive.
But I have no other way to get my feelings and thoughts out. Even though you are my best friend (and in my eyes, so much more) I don't have the guts to tell you how I really feel. I know it will ruin our friendship, because I know you don't have the same feelings for me. And that really hurts. It hurts even more now that you are away.
I'm so lonely without you. Even though I'm alone the whole summer, I know I will be even more alone and feel more lonely when school starts. You know why. You know I hate the girls in my class. The boys are... okay. But the girls - they're just a bunch of witches. I remember we made up different names so we could talk about them in public. I will still call them by those names in my head.
I am really scared to go back to school, because you won't be with me. You won't be with me to encourage me and motivate me. You won't be there to eat lunch with me. You won't be there by my side if I land in some sort of trouble. You won't be there to back me up.
Anyways, I really hope you will have a good experience starting school in America. You're going to high school, damn. You're going to be a senior. I know you'll be happy there. With your looks and kind heart I'm sure you'll fit right in. You've always fitted in. You're very outgoing, but you're the nicest person ever. Your heart is basically made of gold, I swear. I already miss your goodnight texts where it always would say something about how good of a friend I am or that I looked pretty today. But because of timezones, I know you won't have time to think about texts like that anymore. I haven't gotten one since you moved.
I should go to sleep now. It's 3 am in the morning... I've been writing this for like two hours, haha.
I love you.
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