The Crush Diaries

Laurence

Laurence has black spiky hair which compliments his amazing jaw structure, white skin and his eyes are singkit. He is what you call a man with few words. Not very athletic, the only sports he's good at are table tennis and basketball. He's best with his guitar.

His hair wasn't spiky, he wasn't even near attractive before. You know what people say right? "Guys get better with age." He's the perfect definition of that statement. Yet, I fell for him since the beginning. At first, no one really was friends with him, he only had few...and I was one of them. I have always admired him from the beginning. He's was very friendly and humble. But when he decided to look beautiful, that's when everyone wanted to be his friend and all the girls had crushes on him. He had this adorable lisp. He would pronounce 's' as 'sh'...one of the most adorable factors about him. And sometimes, he just bites his shirt. He pulls the top part and bites it in a very attractive manner. He's very attached to his guitar which is cute.

The moment he noticed that he was "popular", he decided to be friends with everyone and forgot about the real friends he had. He began to be boast, he started to become vain. Even so, I still tried to become his friend, yet, he never really appreciated me cause he had all the popularity he wanted. After two months during sixth grade, he forgot all about me and never talked to me again like we did before. Eventually, he found out that I had a crush on him, more so, he ignored me. Some of his friends realized that his head was getting bigger so some of them started to dislike him. I talked to some of them and tried to convince them that he still is the old Laurence we knew and loved.They called their group "the anti Laurence". But, things just got worse for me. He thought that I was the one who started the group of guys that hated him. My crush didn't just break me, but I also lost a dear friend.

A year after we graduated, (still not over him) I found out he made a Facebook account, Laurence was never really fond of social media websites. I sent him a friend request, but he didn't accept it.. I only sent him a friend request, like, more than 50 times...for an entire year. At first I thought that he wasn't very active, but then I noticed that we had 40+ mutual friends and that what irritated me. He only accepted my friend request before Christmas that year. I was beyond ecstatic. When I went to his profile, his dp was him and a girl...the girl wasn't ugly. He looked so happy. His smile was so real...you can only see him smile in rarely, It made me sad, seeing him happy with another girl. I could have made him happier, he could have a bigger smile if he was with me...but that's not gonna happen.

I still don't understand why I think about him. He's obviously off and happy with someone else, why couldn't I just let that go and move on?