when I stand there think what's going on I fell pain I feel bad I fell hurt I just fell alone no one can help me why do I fell why can't I be alone.
I stand there thinking wondering what shall I do people love me people run far from me people hate me people scared of me.
I sit I stare I watch you follow each word by word line by line paragraph by paragraph chapter by chapter book by book series by series
Your eyes are so down so low so frequency there quick there fast
I'm scared of you I'm scared of your eyes when they lay on me
You make me think horrid thing bad things. Things that make me hate my self
Stomach breast face my hair my legs my arms
Things don't fell right no more support of died 2009 but I didn't why did I not
I fell alone I fell crazy I wonder is the smile I place on my face every day
Am I warring a mast a mask that covers up the true me for once?
Why do I care what you think why do I care don't know
I should like me for me and that's all to it but I don't
I fell like the only one the only thing I can take to is me and my teddy's
Sometimes I think ending it all in one but then I don't friends family cross my heart
Ever since ever since 2009 I don't feel me self I don't feel me not no more
But why
