Without You

Chapter 1

I can still feel the soft touch of your fingers, caressing my face as we kissed, tracing down my back making me shiver in excitement. I can still smell you, the strong cologne wafting through the air as you walked past, becoming less distinctive as the day went on. I can still see you, your eyes looking into mine, a dark green like the depths of the sea. I can still vividly remember those days where we would lay in bed from sun rise to sun set, watching old movies and eating pizza and chocolate. Nothing will ever change the way I felt when I was near you. The warmth that spread through me everytime you walked through my door, kissing me on the forehead to say hello. All these memories are embeded in my mind, nothing and no one can replace them. Now all I can see, feel and smell is nothing. Nothing compares to you. I sit on my couch and stare at the door, every day, waiting. I pray and hope that one day you might walk in, like you used to; that nothing ever changed, and the past few weeks were all just a bad dream. But every night, long after the sun has gone down, I force myself to get up and go to bed, punishing myself for hoping yet again. My life has turned into an every day battle. My friends have given up trying to contact me, my parents don't call every single day to check up on me anymore. The thing is, I know I shouldn't let what happened affect me so badly, but the truth is, nothing in my life is worth it. Nothing at all. Not without you.