"She's dead"
"What do you mean honey?" she murmured stroking my hair
If I hadn't just gotten told my mum had died I would have an issue with this but I couldn't even think properly, my tears had made my vision blurry and my mind had gone foggy, I couldn't breathe properly
"Hey,hey breathe" she instructed wiping away fallen tears of my face, I took a shakey breath in, while accepting the bottle of water Marissa held out to me
"Want to tell me what happened" she asked again her voice never losing its softness
"M-my mum, s-she's dead" I stuttered out before breaking into uncontrollable sobs all over again
I can't believe I'm making such a show, Demi is going to think I'm such a freak not that I care..that much
"Honey you're not fit enough to stay at work, I'm going to go talk to your manager, will you be okay here with Marissa?" she questioned, still stroking my hair, I didn't answer instead I was trying to push that desiring feeling to cut its been to long Charli don't do this now.
I whimpered as Demi got up but Marissa quickly took her place and I clung onto her instead
I can't believe how much of a fool im being honestly. Why the fuck am I so upset? All the women did was beat me and hurt me and all I ever wished was to be away from her but now she's gone and I miss her?
I felt a pair of two arms underneath me and was lifted up into the air "Let's go up to mine honey" Demi said as she carried me bridal style into the elevator
"I'll see you another time Dems, I've got something to do” Marissa said to Demi giving her a side hug as I was in her arms and she gave me a hug too “stay strong” she whispered into my hair before leaving
“Lucky I live in this building eh ”Demi joked as she pushed shut the door with her foot, she gently placed me on the sofa and sat beside me wrapping her arm around my back keeping me in a side hug
Normally id be annoyed but my mind was a blur, I had so much going through it and I cant focus on anything
“Tell me about her”
“My mum?”
“yeah”
“She used to be the best mum ever, always loving and caring, you know she was the kind of mum who would bake cookies if I brought friends over or arrange trips to the zoo with my all my friends when I was younger but when I was 10 my dad died from a heart attack and she started drinking which I could deal with but she started hurting me physically, I got taken away by social work when I was 13 because they saw my bruises and cuts at school but when we went to court she won me back, things got worse from there , she was constantly in and out of prison, the other day when I came in all beat up that was her but when I got that phone call it felt like the whole world had come crashing down and I don’t even know why im telling you all this its not like you care”
I can’t believe I basically just poured my heart out to her, what the hell was I thinking and why do I get butterflies everytime I look at her? I’ve spent the last few days convincing myself that I hate her but here she is comforting me and genuinely caring when I have nobody else
I burst into another fit of sobs, crying into my hands, Demi pulled me onto her lap and rocked me back and forth, calming me immensely
“Can’t sleep tonight, wide awake and so confused”
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Sup guys been a while since the last update i know sorry and i know this ones short but hey its still an update
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