It was a cold winter day and I walked to school. A Black Veil Brides song came on on my kindle, a boy and a girl walking past said "turn that shit down you freak!!" but I didn't listen to them I kept saying to myself what andy once said, “they don't understand you". The next day it got worse, people at school were calling me emo, goth, devil worshiper, attention seeker/whore, ect. People would walk up to me and tell me to go kill myself , that nobody liked me, I didn't understand why somebody would say that to someone else just because they're different. That day I went home and cried all day, didn't eat or anything , I couldn't not after what happened today. The next day it kept happening and went on for a few weeks..... I started cutting :(, it had stopped for a few days and I thought it was over, until a girl named jessica walked up to me and pushed me against the lockers and tried to choke me, she started saying hateful things, she pushed me amd I ended up falling, I couldn't hardly get up because they were kicking me and I was a little weak from crying all day yesterday and not eating, finally I got up and ran home. I heard them echoing behind me saying “run home and kill yourself " I started crying and ran faster towards my house. Somehow the people that were bullying me found out my number and started messaging me really hurtful things, they told me that if I came to school ever again that they would kill me. I went to school the next day because my mom made me, and I got bullied even more, the kids that weren't bullying me either stood there or left. NOBODY was there to help me, I was alone with the bullies and they pushed me down and started kicking me, spitting on me, and trying to step on my head. One of them saw some of my scars/cuts and told the others , they started laughing at me and calling me names then told me to go kill myself again. I ran straight home and started crying, I was thinking of how worthless I am and I thought suicide was the only answer. I went to the kitchen and got a knife, right when I was about to stab it through my chest I heard the door start to crack, I put the knife up and dried my face and ran to my room. I told my mom I had a headache and was going to bed, I got some pills out of the cabinet and I took the rest that were in the bottle then fell asleep. All I could see was a white light for a while and then a face started to appear but I woke up as soon as it did. I looked at my clock and it said FRI. 4:00pm I had took the pills Wednesday and was hoping to overdose but I didn't all I did was sleep for two days. All of a sudden my laptop starts beeping, I have four notifications 3 from andy on twitter and one from a BVB fansite it said “ Black Veil Brides concert on Sunday! get tickets now!:)" I clicked the link for the tickets then asked my mom, she said yes and we ordered them and I ordered a V.I.P ticket, an hour later I got my hair cut (scene) and then I went to sleep.
**************************NEXT MORNING(Saturday)****************************
I get my clothes layed out for tomorrow (sunday) then I do my hair and listen to my music the rest of the day while tweeting BVB.
**********************SUNDAY!(concert day!!)********************************
I got up at like 12:00 got dressed, did my hair and checked the mail for my tickets.
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I got my tickets out of the mail box and ran inside. I turned my BVB cd on full blast and screamed. I woke my mom up and she came in my room with a baseball bat thinking I was about to be killed “WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING!!?" “ SORRY MOM I WAS SCREAMING BECAUSE MY TICKETS CAME IN TODAY" “OKAY, PLEASE TURN THAT MUSIC DOWN IM TRYING TO SLEEP A LITTLE LONGER" “OK" I turned my music down and got on my laptop and started messaging my bestfriend azaylia I talked to her for a few hours then it was 6:00pm I told my mom we had 3 hours untill the concert and she said okay, I listened to BVB for an hour and then me and my mom went to the concert, we got there an hour early and my mom sat in the car while I stood in line behind someone. I started talking to the person in front of me and ut turns out it was my bestfriend azaylia that moved to indiana an hour later we walked in and saw andy and ashley getting stuff ready after a few hours the concert was over, me and azaylia said our goodbyes and she went back to her car, she said she he's been following BVB around so she can get into the concerts and so hopefully one day she could meet ashley. I got in the line for the V.I.P people, I was the last in line, after" half an hour I got to meet black veil brides!! I took some pictures with them and then I sat down on andys lap to have one last picture and one of my bracelets broke, I couldn't cover up my arm fast enough andy grabbed my arm amd looked at the jagged red scarred arm and asked me "why.?" I started crying. I felt like a crybaby, I knew what they were thinking they were think I was a stupid person for cutting and doing all of these things I wish my bracelet didn't break I say under my breath while crying my eyes out.
********************* andy's P.O.V ***************************
woah, did I do something wrong or say something? I really hope she's not crying because of me, she's to beautiful to cry, I'll just give her a hug maybe that will help and calm her down a little. I started crying when i gave her a hug I don't know why but when I gave her a hug it felt like I had felt her pain to and I knew why she had done what she did, she calmed down after we all gave her a hug for a few minutes then she said she had gotten raped when she was a little girl and that's when she started cutting I started crying a little and then she started telling us what happens to her at school and about her being suicidal sometimes, she was talking to us like we were her bestfriends and she knew we wouldn't tell anybody. there's something about her that I love so much though, is it her smile, her eyes, her personality, or her all together? I asked myself but I don't know.
*********************** my P.O.V ****************************
andy and the rest of the band are listening to me like they are students and I'm a teacher, I love them so much I can't believe they are actually listening to me and I'm here talking to them I think I'm going to faint.
*faints*
***************** twenty minutes later *********************
*wakes up crying and screaming*
“oh it was just a dream"
“what" I hear a voice beside me say, it was andy, I had fainted and now I'm laying on his lap.
“where are we" I ask
“ the tour bus"
“what!!?"
“ its okay we've already told your mom that you were going on tour with us and that you fainted on andys lap" ashley says
I get up and walk around to get used to the smell of the liquor and smoke mixed with a hint of clogne I get dizzy and end up falling on a little bed in the floor.
“is this where I'm sleeping?"
“yeah"
“oh okay"
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******************andy's P.O.V****************
"do you want me to sleep with you tonight to keep the bad dreams away?"
"sure"
ashley gets up and helps syerra off the floor.
" who was that cute girl you were with at the concert syerra?" ash asks while a little amirk comes upon his face
" her name is azaylia but she likes to be called zayy she's my bestfriend why?"
"I was just wondering."
"you like her don't u!!?"
“ psshhhh noo!"
“yea you do! awee, I can't believe this! she is like in love with you!"
ashley just walked off to the bathroom and locked the door, I started to hearvhim yell “YESSSS!!" at the top of his lungs haha I can't believe it, ashley has a little crush! awe c:
*********** jinxx P.O.V *************
oh gosh! andy's gonna get some tonight I'll just sleep on the little couch and let them have their privacy.
********* my P.O.V ************
I see that jinxx starts to lay down on the little couch that's built into the bus so I go lay down on the twin sized mattress after a few minutes I feel a hand wrap around my waist and pull me closer.
" its okay, its just me" I heard andy say
he layed there for a bit then when I was half asleep and half awake I hear him say this right before I end up falling asleep “ill always be here for you! I swear"
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