Give Me Time (bxb)

Chapter 1 - First Day

Picture is of Jacob :p

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     "Jacob!"

"Ugh", I groaned grabbing my pillow and putting it over my face. Mabey I can I suffocate myself before she calls me again. "Jacob Daym Matthews!" Sighing, I sat up and threw my pillow at the door. I heard a dull thud and then a gasp. I turned my head to see my mom standing at the doorway with a slight disheveled look and the pillow I had thrown sitting at her feet.

"Did that hit you", I asked in a tired, sleep deprived voice. She gave me a look as to say unbelievable. "Yes it hit me." She bent down and picked up the pillow before throwing it at me. It smacked into my face. "Get up. You can't be late for the first day of school."

Right. School. Me and my mom had just moved to this new town at the beginning of summer. And now it was time to go to a new school. I can't even remember the name of it. All I know is, it's a K-12 public school. I've been there once to check it out and it's huge. It's divided into three different sections. One for elementary, one for junior high, and one for high school. The high school section was a little more secluded than the rest. All the grades shared one huge cafeteria during different times of the day. It was generally a private school. Not a lot of students.

I'm sixteen and starting the eleventh grade today. I felt kind of weird because majority of the kids in my grade have been going there since elementary. The Dean told us that they didn't get a lot of new kids for high school. It was hard enough, with my social anxiety, to go to a new school but being one of the very few new kids would just get me more unwanted attention.

I picked my phone up to check the time.

6:08AM

School started at seven-thirty. I needed more time than that to stress myself out.

I walked over to my dresser and opened up the drawers. I pulled out a pair of socks and a pair of boxer briefs then went over to my closet and pulled out the uniform I had to wear. They provided shirts, two navy blue ones, two white ones, and two black ones. The pants you had to get yourself. They have to be khaki and/or black slacks. Since I would rather die than wear slacks I just bought a few pairs of khaki and black skinny jeans.

Shit. I hope I can wear skinny jeans because they're all I own and I really don't want to have to deal with getting in trouble over pants.

I grabbed a pair of black skinny jeans, a plain, long sleeved black shirt, and the white uniform shirt. I looked over the uniform shirt and realized it had LOGWOOD written on it. Logwood? Really?

I placed the clothes on my bed before walking to the bathroom to take a shower. After about twenty minutes in the shower I stepped out. I quickly dried my body and then wrapped a towel around my waist. I walked over to my bed and began getting dressed, putting on my boxer briefs, then my skinny jeans. I walked back into my bathroom to blow dry my hair. My hair was long enough to have an emo look but still short enough to gel back. After my hair was dry I went back to my room and put on my black long sleeved shirt and then the white uniform shirt over it.

It was about six-forty and I was freaking out. Yeah I still had plenty of time but this is what I do. I stress and freak out over nothing.

My socks had disappeared. I should just grab another pair but I'm too fucking dumb to do that. I sat on my bed and let out a heavy sigh, Where are my shoes?

After digging through my closet, for forever, I finally found my black vans and placed them on my bed. I continued to look for my socks, finding them underneath my bed. "How the hell?", I muttered to myself.

"You okay?"

"Holy fucking shit!", I breathed. Looking up I saw my mom standing at my doorway with her eyebrow raised questionably. "Um. Yeah I'm just stressing myself out", I answered.

"Why don't you take your medicine?", she suggested. "I'm out", I stated standing up.

I had a prescription for Zoloft since I was fourteen. I knew I shouldn't have put off refilling my prescription.

She sighed," Okay. I'm going to be working all day, so you can walk to a pharmacy after school. Can you deal for today?"

"I'll try", I mumbled. She walked over to me and kissed my forehead," Just take deep breaths and relax. You'll be fine." I nodded.

"Take your time. Come and eat breakfast when you're done, then I'll drop you off at school."

She left after that, leaving me to myself.

Finishing putting on my socks and shoes, I grabbed my bag. I checked to make sure that I had everything I needed before leaving my bedroom.

Before I closed my door, I realized that I should grab my prescription since I was going to head to a pharmacy before walking home.

Making sure I had everything I needed, I headed downstairs. My mom was at the kitchen table scrolling through her phone.

She looked up and smiled at me as I entered the kitchen. "Here baby." She slid a plate of pancakes towards me.

"Thanks," I muttered. I picked at my food until it was 7:05, when I told my mom we should probably get going.

She agreed and we began to leave.

As we got into the car my mother started talking.

"I'm going to be at work all day, so you'll have to find your way home. Use Google Maps or something. It's not that long of a walk. You'll be okay. Just try not to get lost."

I nodded in response.

She glanced at me and smiled, "It'll be okay sweetheart. I'm glad you decided to try again."

"Yeah."

She gave me a sad smile before turning her focus onto the road.

I bounced my foot nervously. It had been a while since I had gone to a public school. I was so used to staying home and doing my schoolwork on the computer.

I just really hoped I could stay unseen. If I went the entire year without being noticed... It would be a miracle. I could live without friends. I have lived without friends.

I could see the school buildings in the distance.

My chest tightened. Shit.

My foot started to bounce faster. I took a deep breath. Fuck.

God kill me.

We pulled up to the entrance for the high school section. There were a few scattered people in the front but I could tell there were more people beyond the gates.

I took a deep breath. Only a couple of minutes until the bell rang and class started. I squeezed my eyes shut and breathed.

You can do this Jacob. Come on, I thought to myself.

"You ready?" my mom asked, her voice gentle.

Fuck. I hate being like this in front of her. In front of anyone.

"Yeah", I tried to smile but it probably just looked like I was having a stroke.

"It'll be okay." She paused before adding, "If anything just call me. I'll come and pick you up."

"Okay." I took one last deep breath before opening the door and stepping out. My heart sped up.

"Bye sweetie", my mom waved. "Bye."

I watched her drive away.

Fuck. I would do anything to just go back home.

I looked up at the school. I was so small compared to it. I don't know why that made me feel so uneasy.

Why can't I be normal.

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