Can't Handle (Sequel to True Love Never Dies?)

Part 6

(Shout out to IzaakSB. He deserves all the love and the support that he gets!)

"No. This can't be real. She can't be gone. She's not dead, I know she isn't..." I whisper to myself. I'm stitting in a corner of my room. My head inbetween my knees. My arms around my legs. Tears running down my cheeks. It's been a few hours since me and dad saw Eleaner die. My heart goes out to Izaak. I feel really bad for him. I mean like, he's just lost the girl of his dreams, his wife, part of him, his happiness. I can't imagine the pain that he feels. My dad should know how he feels.

I phoned up Lily, she says that they all got home. Izaak hasn't left his room since. Mark has tried to talk to him but he won't listen. He's shut everyone out because of Eleaner's death. Sean wants to help everyone else, just like Eleaner would. But, he's in shock and denial. Just like I am. We all miss her. Lily, poor Lily, she has her mum's personality, she must be reminded of Eleaner every time she does something.

I start to feel the anger inside of me bubble up. My fists tighten, my nails digging into the palm of my hand. I stand up and punch the wall. "IT ISN'T FAIR!!" I shout as loud as I can. Then, I break down onto my knees. Crying harder than I have ever done before. I've lost two people who are close to me. So close that now they're gone, I hate myself.

I feel like i am a monster. It's getting stronger. This family, yes, I class my mum and dad's friends as family, has gone through so much bad luck these past few years. I can't handle it. This is too much. It needs to stop. And fast.