Summer's Warm Summer

Dedicated kay @AngelaluvsYou. Hello! :)

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Do you hate your life?

Try and guess. Your profession involves studying the human mind, not asking the obvious.

Okay, then why? Why do you hate it so much?

Ikaw? What's your reason for living and loving this sick life?

Bakit 'di ka na ngumingiti? Or shout. Pwede mo ko sigawan. Let it all out. You know there's no harm in showing your emotions. Kahit negative pa 'yon. You should never bottle it up.

And there's no harm in not sticking your nose in other people's life.

I'm here to help you. Sabi mo nga diba, profession ko ito.

And you think you're helping?

I sighed. I'm just very sick of life and this stupid psychologist sa harapan ko na pilit binabago ang perspective ko at pilit pinapakain sakin yung bullshit niyang explanation tungkol dito.

Why do people have to pretend they like me when they really don't? Why do humans even struggle to be happy knowing it'll just be temporary? It's pointless, isang kabobohan lang iyon.

There's no point in being happy kasi ang kasunod lagi nun, sakit. Life is just a never-ending cycle of giving then replacing happiness with a much bigger emptiness and sadness. 

Starting from now on, I'll never embrace the feeling of being happy. Or any kind of emotion. I'm tired of being the fragile one.

Most people will disagree with my point of view, pagpipilitan nila na mali ako, because they are scared to get slap by the truth of what 'life' really means. Too bad, maaga akong namulat sa totoong meaning nito. I got slap by the truth, hard, fucking hard.

You know what Summer, life isn't as bad as you make it out to be. You know it yourself. Because if it is, why are you still living it? You know it, Summer. Deep down, you know and you're hoping for it.