(Three years later)
The year of 1995 was big for Billie and his bandmates. American idiot really boosted their fame to outer space and they are higher than any other punk band. Billie also got his girlfriend. But the year of 1995 brought him hell as well. His depression and anxiety was taking over him. For the last two concerts of the tour, Billie had so many panic attacks. They took him to the doctors, and the doctor diagnosed him with an anxiety disorder.
The band has made more albums that shot through the roof and it has boosted their fame. It was going good for Mike and Tre, but for Billie, it was going down hill. He kept his pain in secret. He didn't want anyone to realize his pain. It was too much for him.
Billie was sitting in his dressing room as he looked at himself in his mirror. He hated the way he looked. His hair and his eyes made him feel disgusted of himself.
How are you still alive?
Leave me alone! Please. I just want to be left alone!
Oh come on Billie! Stop saying that! You know we ain't gonna leave! We'll leave if you just kill yourself already. It's easy.
I'm not gonna do that.
It's really simple Billie. Just take those pills and you'll be on your way to see yer daddy again.
Shut the fuck up! LEAVE ME ALONE!
Billie snapped out of his thoughts when he saw Adrienne standing there. She smiled at him and walked up to him and gave him a kiss. Billie gave her a small smile. "What's wrong?" Adrienne asked.
Billie shook his head. "Nothing Adie. Just thinking" Billie lied.
"What you thinking of?" Adrienne asked as she hugged him. Billie kissed her forehead and sighed.
"About the concert. I just don't want to mess everything up. Especially since you gonna be there" Billie said. Adrienne smiled and kissed his lips. She looked into his green eyes but she noticed that he was broken. But she brushed it off and smiled.
"You'll be fine" Adrienne said. Billie nodded his head and looked at his feet. Adrienne frowned and she looked at Billie.
"What's wrong? Something's wrong, tell me" Adrienne said. Billie sighed and he sniffed.
"It's just I wished my father was here to see what I've done. I wish he was still alive to see me perform. It's because of my father I am playing music" Billie said holding back his tears. Adrienne gave Billie a small smile and she rubbed his back.
"I'm sure your father would be very proud of you Billie" Adrienne said. Billie nodded his head and sighed. Adrienne pecked his lips as Mike and Tre came in the room.
"Woah! I see what's going on here! I'm sorry for interrupting" Tre teased. Adrienne blushed and Billie remained expressionless. Mike looked at his watch and it was five minutes until the concert starts.
"Beej, we gotta go" Mike said in a soft voice. Billie nodded his head and stood up. Adrienne and Billie kissed each other one more time before Billie turned around.
"I just wanna be with my father again" Billie mumbled as he followed Mike and Tre.
Three made it to the stage and they were greeted by three hundred thousand people. Tre went to his drum kit and Mike to his usual spot. Billie went to the front of the stage and he looked at the fans. He grabbed his guitar and put it of his shoulders and had the guitar ready. He opened his mouth and he let the words of songs flow out.
The concert went really smooth until it was at the end. That time Billie was supposed to sing 21 guns, but he decided to change things up. He went to Tre and opened his mouth. "We're changing the song" Billie said.
Tre frowned and nodded his head. "Which song?" He asked.
"Wake me up when September ends" Billie said. And Tre nodded his head. Billie then walked up to Mike.
"What's wrong?" Mike asked with a worried expression.
"We're gonna do a different song" Billie said. Mike frowned.
"Which one?" Mike asked. Billie sighed and opened his mouth.
"Wake me up when September ends" Billie replied. Mike frowned and he was in shock.
"Billie, you've never sang this song live! Are you sure you wanna do this song?" Mike asked. Billie nodded his head.
"Yeah. I'm sure" Billie said. Mike nodded his head and he smiled. Billie went to his spot and he looked at his fans and he smiled. He opened his mouth and the fans got quiet.
"Before the night ends, I wanna sing this last song. This song really means a lot to me. I wrote for someone who passed away when I was young. And he was the world to me and he still is. So this song goes out for him. It's called Wake Me Up When September Ends" Billie said. The fans cheered and they chanted the band's name. They quieted down when Billie started the notes of the song.
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends
Like my father's come to pass
Seven years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends
Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are
As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when September ends
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends
Ring out the bells again
Like we did when spring began
Wake me up when September ends
Here comes the rain again
Falling from the stars
Drenched in my pain again
Becoming who we are
As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost
Wake me up when September ends
Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
Wake me up when September ends
Like my father's come to pass
Twenty years has gone so fast
Wake me up when September ends
Wake me up when September ends
Wake me up when September ends
Billie finished the song and the fans cheered. Billie looked down and he felt a tear roll down his eye. This was one of those days when Billie felt like crashing. He wanted to end everything. He wanted to be with his father but he couldn't. Who would look after Adrienne? What about the band? What about the fans? Billie, Mike, and Tre went back stage and Billie walked up to Adrienne and she kissed him.
Billie kissed her back finally feeling something positive. Adrienne looked at him and smiled. "That was very brace of you Billie" Adrienne said.
Billie shook his head and he kissed her lips. "I love you" he said.
"I love you too" Adrienne said. Billie shook his head.
"No. I love you. And I want you to know that" Billie said. He then went to his dressing room and he feel asleep in there.
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Still Breathing (Green Day fanfic)
FanfictionAfter Billie's father died, Billie has never been the same. He stopped being that funny and happy boy. He became angry and depressed. He stopped smiling and he hardly talks. The only thing that keeps him alive is music and his friends.
