My first love

Hay guys I know this might not make sense to many or it may relate to some but I just had this bugging at me for a long time and writing it felt so nice so here u go.. My short story

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Why was I your first?

Well, I wasn't,well I was that fat weird girl in class, I thought I fit in at first, and then everyone started to move on forget me, and leave me behind.

I was the one left alone, the ugly duckling, I was the one that people picked last, I'm the one they easily forget.

They say sorry I forgot, they say common bullsh*t that makes you believe their lies. Unfortunately the truth is that my soul was dying.

Their bullsh*t, all of that was just a way if saying I don't care for u anymore, u served your purpose, I got what I needed, I don't need u anymore, and you are just an empty toothpaste container.

To be honest that's how I felt inside, like a failure and good enough for no one,...so the reason your my first is I haven't ever felt loved before.

With you I just feel ok, like I fit into this equation, like I'm not a fuck up for once. For once I can feel like I'm a real person and that for once I'm actually beautiful in someone's eyes.