V is for Vanessa

Chapter 1 - Arizona State University

"When I was a little girl, my mom would tell me before bed, that I would move on to do great things in life. Of course I believed her, she was my mom. But today, I'm not so sure that's true, with everything that's happened in the past month. I'm 18 and my birthday is in a little over four months. By now, you would think that I'd be headed off to college. Well, I was at one point, until my entire world came crashing down. For a little while, it was like the world had gone into an oblivion, and I was left alone.

My grandma says it's not healthy for me to be sitting in my room all day. That's why I made this diary months ago, so I wouldn't be bored up here. It's a new day and a new beginning. I'm leaving for Arizona State University tomorrow, and hopefully it can become a part of me that I can say I've actually acknowledged, with everything going on and all.

Back to the basics. Hey, I'm Vanessa Tucker. I'm from Tellico Plains, Tennessee. You've probably never heard of it. Nobody has. It's too small. But I like it, and I'm going to miss it while I'm off on my big venture to college. Yay.. I'm only doing this whole college thing, because it's what my parents would have wanted me to do. I want to make them proud you know. Gosh do I miss them. I don't like the sadness arousing on this page, allow me to change the subject. I don't really like talking about what happened.

I'm majoring in psychology. Something I really enjoy is helping people understand their problems and overcoming them. I really connect with it and I like the fact that I can help them. It gives me this feeling of reassurance and I'll never understand why. I'll talk more later, G-ma's calling me down for dinner." - 3/14/17

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"Are you all packed?"

"Yes grandma, and don't worry, even if I wasn't packed for tomorrow, you know it's okay to start college next year, I don't mind."

"Vanessa Mae, you know how much this would have meant to your parents, especially your mother. You are a beautiful, smart, young woman who is ready, and you are ready. There is no more time for pushing it away, and tomorrow is your big day. I bet your momma is up there looking down on you applauding your braveness and your confidence. She would have loved to be here for you."

"I know, and I'm sorry. I'm just nervous that's all."

"I get it pumpkin. Now get some sleep, you have a long day ahead of you. I love you so so so much."

"Love you too grandma."

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"Well, this is it. I'm here, awkwardly standing under a tree, writing in this here darn book. People are looking at me, and I should probably start walking. Okay, here we go. Come on Vanessa you can do this.

This isn't so ba.." - 3/15/17

"Hey, watch where you're goinggg..." I say with annoyance.

"I'm sorry, did I hurt you princess?" the man with a husky voice replies while laughing his ass off.

"Okay, first off, I'm not a princess, secondly and most importantly, why are you laughing?" I reply while looking up at him. Woah, he's gorgeous. Oh no no no no. Not now. Vanessa get it together. We're not here for romance, but here for psychology.

"Well, while you were too busy writing in this here book" he holds out my diary and a flash of fear approaches me, "you bumped into me, which by the way I'm so very tempted to take this book, but I won't because I'm trying this new thing where I'm nice to people and.." he smirks but I cut him off.

"Newsflash, it's not working, and I'd like that back please."

He sets it on top of my binder while I look him straight in the eye.

"Thank you."

"No, thank you." He replies while walking off with a smile.

That was oddly weird, and why was he smiling. I reach down to grab my phone so I can use the front screen as a mirror to make sure I look alright, when I realize it's not there.

I look straight ahead at him as he holds my phone up over his shoulder.

"Oh come on." I yell up toward him. "If you wanted my number you could have just asked for it."

This is the end of chapter 1. Please VOTE❣️and I'll see you in the next part :) - Maddy