One Direction: Moments

Sad Larry Stylinson story. If it worked, then the song Moments should be to the right. :)

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|~*~Moments~*~|

Liam, Niall, and Zayn,

First, I want to say that you guys were probably the best thing that happened in my life. When I auditioned for The X Factor two years ago, I never imagined meeting such amazing guys. I felt that I could actually win. But then I found out that I had been rejected for the boys category. You had been too. I felt worthless. But then Simon put us together in a group. We were One Direction.

I didn't expect us to get big so soon. Sure we lost The X Factor, but we had gained a fan base of Directioners who supported us from the very beginning. We recorded an album. Up All Night. We released three music videos. And they all went viral. Then the U.S found out about us and we were even bigger than before. And in 2012 our American Tour sold out. And so did our show for Madison Square Garden. It was amazing.

But nothing great can last forever. As you lads know, Harry was diagnosed with cancer in April earlier this year. We cried when we found out. He promised us that he wouldn't let cancer defeat him. That he would stay strong. We continued shows despite his cancer and went along as we normally did. And sadly canceled shows every now and then because Harry would have to go to treatment. He stayed strong for us all when we were slowly breaking apart inside. And he did. He fought cancer for three months before his final breath came. And on July 12, 2012, Harry Edward Styles died.

We were upset. No... we were a wreck. One Direction wouldn't be the same without Harry. He was our curls. Our baby. My Hazza.

You guys know that he and I had a “bromance” ever since our days on The X Factor. And I guess I should tell you guys that I always wanted it to be more than that. I didn't realize it right away, but I knew that I, Louis Tomlinson, had fallen hard for Harry Styles. I was, and still am, in love with Harry. And seeing him go left a gaping hole in my heart. I never told him how I really felt about him. I couldn't finish my speech at his funeral because I broke down during the middle of it. I refused to go into treatment because I promised myself that I would live on and be strong for Harry.

But lately, I've been finding that very hard to do. Everything reminds me of him. I lay awake at night crying and wishing that he was still with me. Wishing that I could turn back time and tell him how I really felt about him. Wishing that he and I could be messing around with each other again. Wishing that I could hold him again. Wishing that our time together could've been longer. And it hurts that I'm in our room right now. The room that was once filled with mine and Harry's laughter is now haunted. I still think I can feel him here with me, but I know he's not. He's gone. His things are still exactly where he left them. His favorite blue blazer is at the edge of his bed along with my favorite suspenders and my favorite striped shirt.

I know you don't want to hear this, but I need to tell you. I'm going to be with Harry again. I can't live without him. Tell my mom and dad that I love them. They were the best parents I could've asked for and I'll never forget them. Take care of my sisters. I love them so much and I don't want anything to ever happen to them. They are amazing girls and one day they'll do great things.

Niall, I'll miss you. When we first met, you were so quiet. But you proved me wrong as you started to come out of your shell. You're a fun, carefree guy. You never let anything keep you down. And I admired you for that. You perfect girls is waiting for you out there. And she'll get passed your eating habits. I love you.