Dear Mr. Alpha, Im not yours!

never had it so good

I was hesitant to open the letter. I would get so close to revealing the words, then chicken out and fold it back up neatly. It probably sounded pathetic. I’m sure it did, but something in the back of my mind was telling me this wasn’t going to be a love letter. I had been trying to will myself to open his post-it for about a half hour. Eventually I knew I would give in. They always did say curiosity killed the cat, or the wolf in my case.  Then something that hadn’t happened to me in a while happened. My wolf spoke to me. 

“Open the damn note already Alice. It could be important.”

This was the first thing she has said to me in weeks, and of course it had to be hostile. I don’t know what I did to her, but she is pretty pissed. 

“JUST OPEN IT ALICE!” 

She was going to give me a migraine if she kept screaming in my ear like that. I wish my wolf had a little bit more sensibility and sympathy for me. Although I was the only person she would talk to directly besides her mate, she hated me. It made me feel like I had done something horrible that I would never know about in a past life. 

Giving into to her peer pressure seemed easy enough. I don’t want a headache and I have to do it eventually.  I couldn’t unfold the pink post-it slowly. It needed to be done fast or I would chicken out for sure. I ripped it open, yet I was careful not to rip it. The words that were spilled precariously across the page almost had me choking on my own saliva. 

“Don’t think I didn’t notice you weren’t wearing a bra. It was quite obvious, especially with your perky breasts. Although I did also smell Alec on you, and I will not let you do sexual activities with a human; even more so since he hates our kind. I need you to meet me in the clearing of the forest at midnight.”

That was all it said, but somehow it had a huge impact on me. I didn’t want Jason to know that I did dirty things with Alec; I knew he would look down upon me for it. It was right of him though. I was a young and unmated werewolf and Alec was an unknowing stupid human.  That was something that almost everyone in our pack would frown upon. 

I knew Jason saw and felt my breasts so his comment didn’t make much of a difference to me. Although I couldn’t help feel like maybe Jason had a crush on me. Everyone mentioned how we would be a cute couple, I would glare in response and he would fight the blush from appearing on his face. Possibly, I thought. Possibly I am more than a friend. For a millisecond the thought of Jason and I making pups or as humans call it babies crossed my mind. I shook it out before you could even comment, but in my mind Jason has a banging body.  

Only in my wildest dreams would I think about dating Jason. Jason wouldn’t go for a girl like me. Looking in the mirror I saw that I looked basically the same as usually but it also looked like a gained a few pounds. 

I didn’t look very good semi- chubby. I had always been skinny, but I guess I got distracted and didn’t watch what I was eating. I knew how the guys at my school were; they didn’t want to date a chubby girl.  I knew my mate would be disappointed if he saw me, only because of my not so perfect body.  I guess I will be going to the gym to pass time before my visit to Jason. 

After arriving at the gym, I realized I needed to get the work. I plugged my IPhone headphones into my ears, and blocked out the world. I hadn’t been to the gym in so long that I forgot what to do. I hopped on the treadmill, put it at a steep incline, and got walking.

I wasted two agonizing hours at the gym; I had to call it quits. I was sweating bullets and looking completely gross. Heading home, I didn’t have enough energy to sing in the car, like I usually do. Today I just bobbed my head to the music. 

I ran to my room before Alec could see me like this. 

A quick cold shower was all I wanted. I was kind of scared to take long showers knowing Alec was still staying in my house.  Cold showers are best after working out, anyways. 

I wished I could have spent a little longer preparing my self for Jason, but I was short on time. I pulled on my favorite American eagle skinny jeans, a Victoria’s Secret Pink hoodie, and my black UGGs. I’m sure Jason would have appreciated it if I put on some makeup, but why would I give him that satisfaction.

Walking through the forest to the clearing at night is nerve racking. I wasn’t in my wolf form, and I didn’t plan on shifting into it. Meaning someone could attack me and I wouldn’t have much defense. I did reflect a strong werewolf smell, although only other wolves could smell my dominance. I internally signed. At least, I brought my phone with me.  

By now I wasn’t to far from the clearing.  I was aimlessly wondering through the dark eerie woods. 

“Where have the times gone baby

It’s all wrong,

Where are the plans we made for too?

If happy ever after did exist

I would still be holding you like this

And all those fairytales are full of shit 

One more fucking love song and I’ll be sick”

It was official somebody else was in the woods with me. That only made me more nervous. 

“Yeah, hey man. “

The other person in the woods was clearly a boy, a man to be exact. I could tell by his deep, yet sexy voice.

“Nah dude, I hope she says yes. I know, but that human really? I’m just saying she could do better.”

Wait? This sounded like they’re a wolf. 

“Yeah man. I’m going to ask her tonight, wish me luck. Bye dude, I got to go. Wouldn’t want her in the woods alone.”

This made the wheels in my head turn at a rapid pace trying to figure it all out. What could whoever that person is and what they wanted. I know it was really none of my business, but I couldn’t help to wonder.  If he was a wolf, then maybe I knew him. Though that voice was unrecognizable and completely sexy.

“So Alice, I’m sure you heard my little phone call.”

Standing directly behind me; looking gorgeous in jeans and a white undershirt, was Jason. His voice matched perfectly to the man who had been on the phone.  

“Your voice, it changed.”

I was generally curious about how his voice could suddenly get so incredibly sexy. So deep that it could make girls go weak at the knees. 

“It hasn’t changed since I was fourteen. Maybe you’re just finally realizing.” 

Finally realizing. What could I have been finally realizing? It made no sense to me the way Jason was speaking. It was cryptic, like a secret code. It almost seemed like he knew something I didn’t and he was hanging that in front of my face to annoy me. 

“But… what do you mean? Realizing what?”

Jason chuckled and shook the question off. This bothered me a lot; I hated to know someone held information about me that I didn’t even know. 

“Never mind that dear. Will you attend a special alpha dinner with me on Saturday?”

Was Jason asking me on a date? I didn’t have to think for the slightest second before sending him my response. 

“Yes.”

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