The New Roommates ▷ Toddy Smith

Chapter 17

He was my every thing. He is my everything. And I miss everything.

It's been 2 weeks since I last saw Todd

It's been 2 weeks since I've slept

It's been 2 weeks since I've gotten out of bed

Functioning with out Todd is harder than I thought it would be, he was the reason I got up in the morning, the reason I was happen but now he's the reason my heart is broken and I can't sleep.

Liza told me I could move in with her but I feel like I shouldn't, Todd never comes here but I don't think I can stay in L.A so I constantly tell her that I'll stay until I find somewhere else to go

Liza and David have been so supportive the last 2 weeks, they force me to get out of bed and eat dinner at the table with them, or come watch a movie with them on the couch

Last night I slept for the first time thanks to Liza, she gave me a Melatonin before bed which helped me sleep. Today I woke up to Kristen knocking on the door frame with a large bag of Mc Donald's in her hand and a smile on her face.

I haven't seen Kristen in 2 weeks because I've been avoiding her but I'm so happy to see her right now. She comes and sits beside me on the bed and waves the Mc Donald's in front of my face.

"I got all day breakfastttt" she sings

I sit up and open the bag taking out the box of pancakes and maple syrup as Kristen does the same.

"Kristen I'm sorry for avoiding you" I mutter looking down

"Madi it's okay, I totally understand but I just had to make sure you were okay" she said looking at me

"By okay you mean alive right? Because there's no way I'm okay" I say lifting my head with tears in my eyes

Kristen was taken back by my comment before her eyes started to fill with tears "yes and no. I love you so much Madi, you're like my sister and there's no way I could be okay if you weren't around"

I put my pancakes aside and hug Kristen as we both begin to cry.

"I'll never leave you Kristen" I whisper

She nods and we pull away from the hug and start eating again.

"I need to see Todd" I say casually

"What? Are you sure?" Kristen asked clearly concerned

"Yes I'm positive" I say blinking back tears that were threatening to spill

"I can take you back with me but I just need to know why?" She asks looking at me

"Because I almost forget the way his lips felt against mine, or how our bodies intwined perfectly together as we're nestled under a pile of blankets. I miss his beautiful voice and laugh, I almost forgot how he would look at me before we went to sleep. He's so much more than anyone can see. He's the jokes that made us laugh and the comments that made us smile. He might not be as important to everyone else, likewise, neither is every little thing about him and us, but to me, he was my everything. He is my everything. And I miss everything." I say as I fiddle my thumbs still fighting back the tears

"Okay Madeline, I'll take you" she says standing up from my bed "I'm going to go to the living room and talk to David and Liza"

I get up and put on a white baggy sweater that I believe I stole from Todd but I no longer care and black high waisted jeans.

I sit on my bed mentally preparing myself before David busts through the door

"You're not seriously going back there" he says dropping his hands

"Yes I am" I say standing up from the bed

"Madeline what if you get hurt again" he asks clearly not wanting me to go

"Yeah well what if I don't?" I ask causing him to shrug

"Well you call me if you need a pick up" he says before pulling me into a hug

I'm 2 years older than David but for some reason I feel like he's my older brother, all his support has made me feel stronger and confident.

I walk into the living room and give Liza a hug before leaving with Kristen, we get in the car and drive there is completely silent. We pull up to the house and my heart drops, I look over to Kristen who gives me a reassuring nod and we get out of the car.

I walk into the house and the familiar smell hits me, it hits me so hard I almost fall to the ground and cry, it smells like home.

Scott walks up to me and engulfs me into a bear hug, as we pull away he whispers in my ear "he's in his room, he hasn't been out of there in 2 weeks"

I nod as I walk towards Todd's room, I turn the handle and open the door relieving him just how I left him, sad, lonely and drunk.

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Cliff hanger lol
Hmm wonder what Mads has to say.
Hope you guys enjoyed!!! Xoxo