Trapped.

I feel hopeless like no one cares about how I feel.
I feel broken because I know some don't accept it.
I feel shattered because I thought I could trust him.
I feel torn, I dont know who to be.
I feel pressured to stay a woman but is it what I want?
I feel confused because I want to be a girl but I don't want to be.
I feel hatred of the stares  I get when I cut my hair.
I feel alone because I don't  have anyone to help me.
I feel lost.
I just want my friends to understand.
I just want to be accepted.
I just want no one to tell me that I am a girl because I have a vagina.
I just want to be myself.

But, I know that this life is hard.
I know that sometimes people will hate me because of who I am.
I know that I will be okay because there are people who understand.

I'm just torn.
Why can't everyone love?
Why can't everyone try?
Why can't everyone accept?

There are mean and nice people.
I just have to choose to love myself to make up for the people who don't love me.

I just have to learn I'm perfect the way I am.
But, I do know this, if this Even gets read, I want you to know.
Whatever you are going through it gets better.
Whatever you may feel someone is there for you.
I would be there for anyone in need no matter what.

I have shaped lives of people who made bad choices and made lifelong friends.
I know you can too.
Just love yourself.
Because everyone is beautiful in some way.
And one day when I feel down I'll look back at this as a reminder of how far I've come.

I've climbed so many hills in my journey and I still have a long way to go.