Goodbye My Love

Fin.

June 13 2015 2:30pm
I stood there in front of the mirror and casually fixed my hair as Yoongi hyung spoke to the wedding planner over the phone about some last minute details that I should know about. I smiled whilst thinking about how my life would change by the end of the day and I'll forever be with my love like we had both wished for. I'm still in disbelief that he said yes when I proposed to him a couple of months ago and it still feels like a complete dream because why on earth would the most gorgeous man on earth choose me? Someone who chose to give up his medical career in order to pursue music but is now in the dumps? Why would he, a man born into a family of successful lawyers, choose someone who chose to throw his life away? It would still remain a mystery to everyone but if there's anything I'm sure of, it's that he loves me as much as I love him.

"What are you smiling it? You look like an idiot." Yoongi hyung said and bringing me out of my thoughts. I looked at him through the mirror and winked at him but he just rolled his eyes at me while plopping himself down on the couch.

"I still can't believe it hyung. I'm actually getting married." I said, not being able to contain the excitement in my voice.

"I still can't believe that he said yes."

"Me too hyung. What if this is all a dream? Cos if it is then I don't want to wake up at all."

"Idiot. If you don't wake up then what's Jin hyung gonna do? You can't leave him."

"You're right hyung! I'd rather wake up and live my life with him, married or not, rather than not seeing him at all."

"That's tr-" Yoongi hyung was about to say but was cut off when the wedding planner, Jung Hoseok, entered the room and gave a slight wave to Yoongi hyung before looking me up and down and giving me a thumbs up.

"Looking good Namjoon. I hope you're ready because it's time to walk down the aisle." he said and I nodded and followed him out with Yoongi hyung.

2:41pm
I waited at the end of the altar with Yoongi hyung by my side considering that he is my best man. He put a reassuring hand on my shoulder as I wiped my sweaty hands on my trousers, nerves getting the best of me. In four minutes Seokjin hyung would walk down the aisle and after we say our vows we'd officially be husband and husband and I could spend eternity with him. We'll have a lifetime together and adopt kids like we've always wanted maybe adopt a dog too, we'll buy a big house with a study where he'll be looking through cases and a small studio where I'll be writing songs and in the end we'll be together and that's all that matters. I slowly started to calm down as Yoongi hyung rubbed my back and I breathed in and out.

"Calm down Namjoon. You're sweating so much you might end up flooding the area!" He whisper-yelled in my ear.

"I can't help it hyung! In a few minutes I'll be married to the love of my life." I replied and smiled at the thought.

"Yeah but you need to calm down. What would Seokjin hyung think if he sees you like this? He might think you're regretting it already."

"Never hyung! How could you say that!"

"Calm down. They're about to open the door." He said and pointed at the door. I nodded and stood up straight and counted down as Canon in D started playing. 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1.

Nothing. The door didn't open and the music stopped. I waited and looked at Yoongi hyung but he also looked confused and he just shrugged at me and mouthed 'wait a couple minutes he may he nervous'. I nodded and stood there with a smile at my face while looking at the closed door but after a couple of minutes it remained closed. The guests starting to talk amongst themselves and others even gave me pitying looks but I stood my ground and waited more because I know that Seokjin hyung wouldn't do this to me. He wanted this as much as I did. He did. He told me how much he wanted to marry me so he wouldn't leave me. He's just nervous. However, after waiting there in front of the altar for five more minutes and nothing, Yoongi hyung marched down the aisle with a clenched fist when the door suddenly opened. I smiled thinking Seokjin hyung finally came but to my disappointment, it wasn't Seokjin hyung. It was Jung Hoseok and he looked distraught with a piece of paper in his hand and the next two words he uttered shattered my heart.